"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort










Monday, September 19, 2005

You Can't Always Get What You Want....

Here is a little story about a girl who usually doesn't get what she wants. I'm leaving tomorrow bright and early for Canada. I will be gone for 3 days and 2 nights. I had planned on you know, stocking up so to speak on the love front, when I was blessed with a magical gift on Sunday.

Translation: I got my GD period yesterday!!!!!!!

Just in time! Wouldn't want to let me have any fun before I go away, oh noooo, send her off all alone for 3 days. Sometimes, I like to say that things suck!

Money sucks too. I have none. I paid all my friggin bills early again to get out of having to pay them out of my check where I'm strapped for cash. I have no $ to take to Canada. Which, could be a good thing. I wont feel obligated to buy anything, and I can scrounge off sales reps for food I guess.

Friday night me and WG went to see The Exorcism of Emily Rose. Eh. It was ok. I certainly wasn't scared, but nothing really scares me anymore, I've been de-sensetized. The parts they showed of the exorcism were kinda creepy, but not scarey. And, it is mostly a court trial. They don't tell you that in the reviews. We went at the 9:55 showing, so it was late when it was over. Thank God it was sub zero degrees in the theater to keep us up. WG went home afterwards.

I went home, and Tayray was out of town, the people next to her were not home, and the other apt is empty. I was all alone Friday night. Literally. Our back yard is woods. We are up on a hill all alone in the world. Me, being use to being alone, was ok with it. I just turned on the front and back porch lights and slept on the couch w/the tv on. I was good to go!

Yesterday, I went to the Yankee Peddler with Kat. It was loads of fun as usual. We laughed til our stomachs hurt. Good feeling! What wasn't a good feeling, was when I was bent down to look at a painting, and she purposly pushed me over!!!! I fell on my knee! It hurt! Of course, she laughed her friggin butt off, ass! Payback is a Biznatch!

We decided we were going to Ohio Mart in October. TWDSO always took me. Cus his mom was a member of Stan Hewitt or something so we got to go for free. He always made it seem like it was expensive to go. I think its 12 bucks or something. So were going. I said, if we see TWDSO, we are knocking him down!!!! She was all for it! She said she is pretty good at knocking people down. (this I know first hand)

I will not be blogging on my trip. (all together now........) *AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*
So I will try to make today as interesting as possible. I am also on a tight deadline with work. Which you know, we have to have another meeting about. Meet to talk about being behind and having no time, when we could be working instead of pissing around, but what the hell do I know? I'm not management. I don't have a dick. SHIT! Did I just say that????

Today's Question:

What has changed or affected your life most dramatically?

I am going to say a 'who' vs. a 'what'. First would be my friend (who i havnt talked to in forever) Janet. She was the one who taught me self love. I hated myself. It was her constant reassurance that I was a good person, daily pointing out my good qualities, telling me that any man would be lucky to have me. I never believed it, but hearing it so much helped. Then, my friend Katie who practically forced (I am thankful for it) me to leave Z. Once I was out of that environment, along with reassurance, shaped me into who I am today, and I like me!

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh how Sweet!!! Love ya

Katie

MzAriez said...

Hi.

I like reading your blog. It reminds me of talking with my best friend. She still lives in Ohio although I have moved northwestward. I was there this summer and wanted to head to Niagara Falls and Cedar Point before I left, but didn't have a chance. Guess I will be making a trip back home next summer.

BTW, Makade looks exactly like Boo.

Have a great night!

SPG said...

Great blog! Cheers!

Mon said...

I'm Baaaack!
Katie: nothin but love for ya! lol!
Mzariez: thanks! I havnt been to Cedar Point in probably 10 yrs...And its an hour away. Oh, your bunny is the cutest ever then!! (im partial! lol)
Spg: Thank you thank you!