"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

On the Road Again...

I am leaving for Columbus tomorrow.

I was just informed, we are leaving at 6:30 am.

We're packing up for our big trade show. I am going to work my butt off and set up! It is going to be hard work. I plan to be in my room watching me some Big Brother at a decent hour!! I am definatly sleeping on the way to there.

I am going to miss WG. I think, this is why I didn't want to see anybody. I hate feeling like that. Then, wondering what they are doing when you arent around. Sigh. Traveling for work is fun, and not fun all rolled into one.

I am seeing WG this evening, and I can't wait. He got me all out of sorts this morning!
I didn't make much $ at all last night, things are slowing down!

Today we weighed in for our new month of the weight loss challenge. I am so going to smoke those bitches!!!!!! (of course, I mean this in a loving way) May the force be with me? I dunno, Darth Vader did scare me in this Star Wars! All that love and stuff! Makes ya nuts!

Of course, again, I vow to get up early and work out before work, but this wont happen so I don't know why I bother! I do vow, to drink less this month. This excludes, this next 4 days, as I am traveling for work, and thats what you do. Drink. Drink. Eat, and drink. I will be getting plenty of exercise though, loading and unloading and packing and unpacking plants.

(Tune in in a month to see how much of this I actually stick to!)

I have to show Tayray where everything is tonight, so she can take care of my kids while I am out of town! She's a nice friend!

Reason 123,457,896 not to have kids. You can't leave them at home and have the neighbor check on them like you can pets.

Today's Question (for a few days)

What is the deepest depression you have ever been in?

23. can I pick a whole year or two??? Ex husband and me fight. constantly. He cheated on me. left me. Forgave him. came back. Counseling. Coke head. alchoholic. Fighting. Cheat again, forgive again. Left me. came back. I DONT KNOW IF I CAN STOP CHEATING ON YOU. Downward spiral. Wouldn't get out of bed. Couldn't wash my hair, for weeks, or bathe, for weeks, or eat, or sleep for weeks, or work. Lost my husband. Lost my job. Lost my car. Lost my house. Filed bankruptcy. Had cat put to sleep. Met another asshole. Controlled me, abused me, cheated on me, same thing, different guy. Drugs helped me! The legal kind! lol!
I'd say 22/23 were the worst years in my life. I learned a lot, so I would never trade them in.
But I was definately in a deep depression, I thought I would never get out of!

What is the most romantic evening you have ever had?
(can't wait to see these answers)

Me: ummmmmmmmmm romance?

What kind of cowardice do you most despise?
Any type of abuse to another living being.

What is the most painful thing you have had to tell a friend?
I saw your ex with his new girlfriend......but she is ugly! ha ha!

What is the cruelest thing you have ever done to a friend?
Hands down...putting an eyeglass screw and cigarette ashes in her minestrone
soup. I think Bubba has somethin to say about this too! *ahem* lol!

1 comment:

Rachel said...

I had very bad depression when I was a teenager for about a year (age 16-17). I didn't know what it was and didn't know why I felt that way. I was going through a rebellious phase and hated my parents, and then we moved from California to southwest Virginia--a huge culture shock. I hated the new place, and I felt alone. I sought out drugs to numb my pain, and the chemicals only threw me into a deeper depression. I felt like I had fallen into a pitch-black abyss with no beginning and no end. Luckily, I eventually came out of it. Today, I feel like I know myself and what makes me tick better b/c of it.