"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

From The Corner Of My Mind...

Brokeback Mountain. Gay. As in, stupid! Didn't cry. Didn't laugh. Mostly I cleaned while it was on.

I believe in Karma. Some people call it Gods will. Whatever floats your boat, if you're a dick to someone, beware!!!

I'm listening to a book called "Are Men Necessary" by Maureen Dowd. I'm on CD #2 and so far, they aren't.

I'm one of those people that can hear something like, finding a hair where you shouldn't could mean you have problems with your ovaries, and think I have ovary troubles cus I found a hair where I shouldn't. I probably don't need to watch so much TV.

Quitting the second job scares the shit out of me. I fear change. I don't really have a choice though. Mom and sis are supposedly coming the first week of June, (or I'll be seriously pissed at them) and I get no vacation time. Then, I have a week I'll be off in July for a trade show, for job #1. So I'd end up getting written up anyways for missing too much work. (I wouldn't say I've been missing it Bob) Sad thing is I'm still going to try to stay through June if I can.

In 3 weeks, all of my favorite shows will be over with. Blow out. The real houswives of orange county. Lost. Grey's Anatomy. Desperate housewives. Ghost hunters. What About Brian (which has had like 4 episodes, and it's over!!) What do I have then? Huh? Sure, Tivo will still be busy recording all my daytime shows. But those will be fucking repeats soon! I'll have to let her record things she thinks I'll like. But, I don't like giving up control.

Is it wrong, that I piss CP off just to see if he will put up with it? And get a little rush when he leaves, and comes back? I'd say.. yes. I did that shit with the ex husband. Eventually he didn't come back anymore.

I have the biggest peice of crap sweeper ever. Hoover wind tunnel. 1 year, 2 months old. Doesn't suck for shit. Clogs. Pretty much useless. Don't get one. Not for pet owners.

I Scissor cut my dogs hair, in preparation of clipping her, like usual. Only, the clippers stopped clipping. Now, my dog is forced to walk around with the stupidest haircut ever. I'm such a bad Mom!

When I like something, I over use it, then I lose interest.

I have to make the bed before I can go to sleep. I can leave the bed unmade all day, but it has to be neat for me to sleep. If the person in bed with me jacks up the covers, we gotta start from scratch. I have no idea why I'm like that.

My tanning bed burn has left my under eyes wrinkled. I swear, I had no wrinkles until this happened. They don't go away. There they are. 3 wrinkles. Under each eye. I need to get them lasered. I need to win the lottery. I need to cry.

My evil food of the week has been peanut butter twix. It's all in the mix. I vowed to not deprive myself of sugary goodness once in a while. So, I don't feel bad. It was well worth it!

Friend Dusty, and Momma both had dreams that I died walking at night. Good to be terrified while your walking, it keeps your heart rate up, and burns more fat! Thanks guys!

4 Days Til Edwin!!! My random Edwin lyric for today: (for sis she can name that tune)
We wish ourselves beautiful, and we cry in the night. It's not the love you fear, but the fall from the height. Our personal ledges, afraid to look down. My crepe paper bridges, enough water to drown. Don't leave me, and I know your justified. Don't leave me, cus a part of you in me died.


hot for jr. said...

THAT IS MY THEME SONG!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVES IT BIG TIME!!!!!! I've always been afraid to fall in love for fear of being hurt, and what happened this last time I let down the walls to my heart??
Edwin just has a way of speaking to some of us. Others just don't get it. my friend, the blonde 1, saw Edwin sing the National Anthem during the NASCAR pre-race, for the race that didn't happen Sunday, and couldn't understand why we are so nuts over him - I said it's not just the looks. It's the emotion and feeling he puts into his songs. I told her it takes 1 live show and you're hooked!! Once you see him feel the music, you get it!!

Mon said...

Well you tell the blonde one that she has not seen the light! And, he is a hottie, too mkay?
It's rare that you see an artist who writes their own stuff, and feels it when they sing it. Anymore, what we get are cookie cutter pop stars, who sing lyrics someone else probably feels, but you can tell when a song doesn't fit a person. All of that comes together, plus the energy he has, his adorable personality, and the fact that he is gonna marry me and make me want kids, that makes the whole package!!!!

hot for jr. said...

I have to tell you up front that if you marry him, you better watch your back!! I may try to steal your man!!!!!!!!