"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort

Monday, October 27, 2008

Some Rain Must Fall....

I had a pretty fab Friday. Saw V is fantasssstic! Went to the haunted school house too with Heather. We got tix for the later Saw, because it sold out at 7:25. Balls! We got back and people were saying the theater had no seating, and were standing in the back. Whatever, we walked past them and sat in the front row. Amateurs. Our necks hurt but so what? We were going to Fork Kat for bailing cus she was sick, but she lives in a condo and we were thinking we might be arrested with the neighbors on watch and all. She lucked out. (Click here for our last forking adventure, which was way mature fun!)

I also went to Kent on Saturday for the super duper Halloween festivities. I'll post my own pics another time. There were a bagillion and six cops there. In their riot gear. Waiting for trouble. What sucks about it is, theres plenty of bars, but there are so many people, you have to wait in line to get in, because they are to capacity. You can't even Pee! So, unless you get there early you can't stay long. What. Ever.

I will include this photo of a celebrity sighting!

Duh, it's Jay and Silent Bob!

The manfriend and me had our first falling out. I think we've disagreed a couple times, but this time we actually said we were mad at each other. It pretty much sucked, and I was sick over the whole ordeal, and I had to fight back the tears. All in all I'm pretty proud of myself and how I handled things. I use to be a crazed lunatic, and if I can change that, anyone can change anything they want. (change your thoughts, change your life, I live by this!!!)

I have never put my skillz to the test before. But, I would have wound up hurting our relationship because of my own issues had I never worked on them. I know it sounds cryptic, but I don't want my personal biz on the internets. Things are back to fantastic. It lasted maybe an hour. Cus let's face it, we are madly in love.

And after we kissed and made up...wink..we did talk again about our situation (distance) and he brought up how our relationship isn't "normal" and its hard to move forward with it. I asked him what defines "normal"? Our relationship is simply different than what we are use to, and different isn't bad. It's different because we don't see each other as much, it's different because we're crazy in love, it's different because we enjoy hanging out, it's different because we don't bitch and fight, and act posessive, it's different because instead of fighting, we can talk things thru rationally, it's different because we are our own people, and mesh well together. It's different for a lot of reasons. We're happy with each other, really...what else matters? It doesn't come along that often, as I've heard.

The truth is, it's not moving forward because he has things he wants to work on, which I can appreciate, and respect. But I don't want the reason being picked for our not "moving forward" to be the mileage between us. It doesn't seem fair. I know it is all happening for a reason. Whatever it is will be clear in time. The difference with me and that boy is that I can see that, and appreciate it, and be confident in it to where I don't ever question why I am with him. I am, because I'm suppose to be. We are all....where we should be, so why bother questioning it?

That's deep shit! I should totally write a book.


Heather said...

Normal relationships are boring. Really. My husband's and my relationship is very "abnormal" at times. And that's perfect for US. It fits us. It's what makes us work.

Damsel Underdressed said...

"I also went to Kent on Saturday for the super duper Halloween festivities."

...I have been to Kent for Halloween festivities too! Albeit many many moons ago. It is absolute madness.

"There were a bagillion and six cops there. In their riot gear."

...Oh dear God! Just the mention of that makes my heart skip a beat. ;) I love cops. I know. It's a sickness.

Alexa said...

those boys have a good costume going on!!