"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort










Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Is It Over Yet?...

Tonight I'm going to see the Lake Erie Monsters. The name of the hockey team is monsters, and, the mascot is a bird? I think it might be a seagull even? I have no idea, it's my first hockey game. The tickets were free from work so whatyagondo? The manfriend has to work so we'll see if we make it on time. I'm gonna stay in the big city with him too! I'm excited about that, I have 4 days vacation left, and I'm using one for tomorrow! The rest are for my Bday and xmas!

Friday night, I had a text waiting in the car after Cedar Point. It was from that someone who was nothing more than a year long hook up...and it ended over a year ago. The one I said doesn't take the hint when I say to him that I am in love, have a boyfriend, or anything else that involves my not pining over him. I didn't answer the text at all. I wish he'd just go away. It's annoying.

Guess who else contacted me? CP. I stopped wearing the ring well before I kicked him out. He left me a long voicemail about my favorite show Lost, which apparently he now loves too. I have no idea what that was all about. At least I know the number that shows up from time to time is his I suppose. Of course, I'm not calling him back.

And when I think that I was going to marry him, I think of that oldie but goodie Garth Brooks song...."sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers"... I'm especially thankful when I look at my manfriend and it drives me crazy how cute he is, and how I can't keep my hands off of him, or when he says the sweetest thing to me that I truely believe, because it isn't a ploy for forgiveness for something. Or, when we break the bed wink wink. Or, when I'm cold he literally gives me the shirt off his back. I mean, he's uber sweet, and super cute. One day I'm gonna be with him always. I'm impatient, and I hate waiting. Tick...Tock..

You have to just believe that everything is for a reason. And, if you are in the midst of a break up, remember that they always come back. They do. I havn't ever dated a guy that fell off the face of the earth forever. And just because they come back doesn't mean you were meant to be with them. It could be to remind you that for a moment in life you had been temporarily stupid. Or, that you needed that relationship to push you into becoming who you are at this point in your life.

Speaking of coming back, it rocks when you can do something like this...

My dad's funeral, my ex husband (I think we'd been divorced like a year or more) took it upon himself to inform me, that in the obituary, they didn't get my name right. "No, that's MY name alright". Even though I was sad that my Dad had died, I was beaming with the way it felt to say that. I took back my maiden name, because I didn't want any part of him in my life. It was the best feeling, besides realizing that he was merely a stepping stone in the great path that is my life. There was a time I thought he was every mile on that path.

And...Here's my kids enjoying another episode of Planet Earth. Fizzgig is on the left, she's the Mom of the other two, Pickachu, and Fozzie. My precious'essssssss.

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5 comments:

Damsel Underdressed said...

I love your kids but oh, the cat hair! Ha ha.

And I am a firm believer in "Everything happens for a reason."

Erin said...

LOL - Your white cat is so intent on that! I love it!! My cat can barely wake up long enough to glance at a tv, nevermind watch it.

And you're right - they always come back and NO it most certainly doesn't mean it is smart to go back to them!

Alexa said...

you do know that i live a block away from where the lake erie monsters play right?!?! wtf.

Mon said...

damsel:
yea, the hair at my house is NO JOKE! Its a constant battle, but their so cute.

erin:
my cats love nature shows. and fighting over catnip.

Alexa:
you live by the Q? say whaaaa?

Janet said...

I love the bit in this post about your ex returning and your connection to that Garth Brooks song. I totally love that song because it really does apply to so many aspects of life, at least I think anyway. I truly do believe that everything does happen for a reason. The frustrating part is that we may never know what the reason was.