"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort

Monday, October 02, 2006


I hope I don't depress you. I literally feel like someone opened me up and let all my air out. I have no desire to simply 'be' right now. I have no idea why. But what I do know is that it's damned annoying. I spent a lot of time laying around and not having the energy to get up and do anything. I watched a lot of Dr. 90210 and I might be depressed because I want a boob job. And Lipo. I watched this woman go from a FF to a D she had her implants removed. It was pretty sick because her skin was so stretched out from the ridiculous size she had. The Dr. was able to fix it and make her look normal.

Maybe I am depressed because once again CP has overdrawn his bank account, and in turn fucked me out of his half of the bill money. Did I just say that? Oh yes, I did. On top of that, he wrote me a bad check that bounced for last months bills. I've about had it with the fact that he is a complete and total financial fuck up. So, yet again he is direct depositing his pay into my account. How many times do you let a person screw up before you decide their not right for you? Is that a cruel thing to say? This is the final time we're trying this. I'd rather live alone than with someone I have to treat like a child. If I wanted kids, I'd have one of my own. Not adopt a 37 year old one.

I got up bright and early Saturday morning and went to Bath & Body for a beauty cravings party with Bubba and Kat. Our freebies this time were, a pumpkin shaped soap dispenser, a full sized lotion (I got sensual Amber), and a hand lotion or body wash. I also got enough samples to last me another month or so. Love the free samples. Some girls there, didn't even KNOW you could get samples. Newbies. That's half the fun!

I bought some Dirt for my hair. It's my second Jonathon product. I also have Redo. I love to pretend I'm rich and famous. My only purchases were that, and some Caudalie grape water in an aerosol can for my face. Laugh it up, but it feels fantastic. They don't sell the Evian in a spray can anymore. Assholes. They have the cutest line of Hello Kitty stuff and I carried this thing around for a while, but it was $25.00.

After a trip to Victoria's Secret (who was out of every style of their large panties....believe that) we went to Bob Evans for breakfast. We talked about men, and why they are so annoying.

Me and CP got some movies Saturday night..Just my Luck with Lindsey Lohan, was a really cute movie. Anopolis, Benchwarmers, and Stay Alive were pretty fucking retarded. We got a raincheck for the Lake House because it wasn't in, so now if that sucks it was free.

I'm off to wallow in self pity. I have no idea why but it gives me something to do.


Bianca Roland said...

I can definitely understand your frustration over the financial stuff. It's hard to be patient with someone who is financially irresponsible when you're worked so hard to manage your own money.

supplymadam said...

I just hope he realizes how much you go out on a limb for him. That really sucks having a 37 year old child. What is with some men?
Do you like "Dirt"? I loved watching Blowout. I am a frustrated hair dresser. I've been meaning to try Dirt because my hair looks better the next day and the day after it is washed. So basically it looks better "dirty".

R said...

You are living my life! My husband is notorious for bouncing the account. I tell him CONSTANTLY that he has to be careful because we only have a certain amount to spend every week. He gets mad and says "there is never any money" and I come back with "well get a second job for your fun time". It's an on going arguement. I've tried everything too. I ripped up his bank card, yelled, cried, threatened to leave, you name it...nothing gets through to them.
He just did it to me again on Saturday. I gave him $35 to go and "play" at the bowling alley with his bros and sis and he came home with change. I said, "um, you only spent $14?" I knew he went back to the bank. There is no way that my "I got this round" husband only spent $14. If you figure out a solution, please let me know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon said...


Yea, I hope he does too. It's making me crazy! I do love dirt, I can wash my hair every day now and make it dirty. I think only women do things like this. Mine fixes much better when it's not silky soft. I'm a blowout junkie too!

I don't know how to fix such a thing. I think keeping him off my bank account has worked so far. But he will want his own account and change his direct deposit only to screw things up. This way, he has no access to the $ and has to live on the allowence I give him. Hey, if you can't be trusted them's the ropes!!!

.:kat:. said...

I've been missing your life shug -- :( -- so thanks for waving hello during C&C -- add me to the list that didn't know you could get freebies at B&B -- watch out samples -- here I come --

huggin' you

Amy said...

I am a Bath and Bodyworks addict. I swear I can't walk into that shop without spending $50... I'm totally irritated that I missed the $6 Wallflower sale a couple of weeks ago... I LOVE stocking up on those.

Rachel said...

Maybe it's b/c it's Monday. Or money. Or that the days are getting shorter and shorter. All those things can make us blue. Try doing some good ole' cardio and get a good night's sleep.

Hothousemomma said...

I want to go to a party and get freebies and say what are these great products? I want some dirt.

Mon said...

Heck yea, they have parties. My friend Kat gets us in with her. She's special.

I'm addicted too. It's nice to pamper yourself like that!

I used dirt yesterday on wet hair....worked even better!