The thing about life is...it's not always roses. I'm having one of those days where everything is annoying me. I'm not so much in a bad mood, but I'm just sort of..."blah".
I have a problem with patience. I want things when I want them. I have all these ideas for my life that I can't grasp until others fall into place. The major barrier is money. Money means I need a new job. I'll never have everything I want if I stay where I am. Well, I can have diamonds, but diamonds aren't everything...right?
I want to go to school, but I need money to do that. I need a job for money, and need school for a job. To have money in the meantime, I have to work two jobs, working two jobs I have no time for school. I want to buy a house but I need money for that, and in order to get a decent loan I have to have some employment under my belt, and moving around after a year of work isn't going to help. I want to further my relationship with the man, which also takes time. In order to have time, I need a better job, so I can quit working 60 hours a week. I'm just frustrated with my situation, and I suppose it happens to us all.
I have to stay in the moment, and live my life for myself and not get caught up in dreams. Dreams are nice to have, but they aren't always realistic. I'm just having one of those days where I am questioning every aspect of my life. It totally sucks. And it's making me crazy annoyed with myself.
After posting this, and wallowing in tears and self pity for a bit, I got my message from the universe that said this in a nutshell:
There comes a point in most of our lives when we feel ready to experience a change we've had trouble carrying out. Maybe we've been stuck in a home, a relationship, job, or a town that hasn't felt right for a long time, but we've been unable to shift our circumstances in the direction we want to go.
At times like this, it can help to declare to the universe that we are ready for a change. If the time is right, the universe will respond with opportunities and offers designed to help you create the change you wish to see. You can begin the process of making your declaration by getting clear within yourself about what exactly you want to change. Set aside a period of time every day to be silent with your wishes for change, repeating your declaration like a mantra. This lets the universe know that you are ready to change and will be receptive to its efforts.
Guess what happened when I read that and started focusing on a new job? I got a call from the financial place I applied to. I went thru a phone screening, and told them how much I need to make, and it sounds like a fantastic company. My spirits are a little better.