"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort










Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Burning Bridges...

You know, I've never been the type of person to burn bridges. This is why when my stupid ex bf's call, I don't just tell them to eff off!!

That's why CP still contacts me.

And, that's why 'NEW GUY' has contacted me from time to time since I've met manfriend. The first time he texted me was after my first date with new manfriend, and I told him I was tired. At the time, I didn't know where things were headed for me and the boy. I knew I liked him...but, why burn that bridge? Right after sending him that message, the boy texted me something cute. Signs.

I told him I had company. Last night he texted me at work. He said it was his birthday and asked what I got him. I said nothing, but happy birthday. Me=friendly gal. Then he asked what I was doing, and I said working. In the back of my head I was like, what's my problem? I should just tell him what's going on, and not think twice about it. I thought he'd just leave me alone if I kept blowing him off. Then he said I should come over after work.

So, I just responded that I have a boyfriend for about a month now, and I'm not the kind of girl that does that sorta thing. And that was that.

We weren't in any sort of relationship. It was clear what we had was just sex, as was defined by the times we had fun hanging out, then we didn't talk for weeks.

I am always greatful for what I have I am thankful out loud to the universe for bringing me the second job I've wanted, and the man of my dreams. The weight loss I have tried to achieve for years, and I have a place to live, and food to eat, and family and friends. The more you are thankful, the more you will receive, right?

Now, I'm waiting for this to work with money.

6 comments:

Perfect Patti said...

Right on! The tone of your blog sure has changed drastically from when I first started reading. I'm happy for you! Keep on keepin' on.

bethie said...

you go girl! burn those bridges. it feels good sometimes!

Mon said...

Patti:
Hasn't it? its amazing what an influence people can have on you. It's the path I've been trying to follow, and now I have a partner to travel with =)

Bethie:
It sure does!!

Janet said...

I agree that the tone of your blog has changed. I don't know if you would have had the courage, or the motivation, to tell the truth in a situation like that in the past. Hopefully the relationship you are in now is a testament to that:)

Rachel said...

Good for you. That's a bridge with a dragon coming after you. Burn, baby, burn! Some relationships are just toxic. I can't believe he demanded to know what you got him for his birthday! Sister--you've moved on!

Mon said...

Janet:
I wouldnt have. even if i were in a relationship, i wouldve kept him around for something or other. I dont feel the need now. I guess ive also never had everything I wanted in one person.

Rachel:
thank you! I'm the queen of toxic relationships! Yea, you know what he wanted fr his bday. blehh! I got it wayyyyyyyyy better now wink wink!