"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Survivors Guilt...

Yesterday at work, we noticed heightened security. We have security on premise all the time, walking around, guarding things, patrolling the lots outside. Yesterday, it was like Noah's ark and they were two by two. Something was off.

Then, you noticed people being walked out. Boxes in tow. Crying. Not by security, but by loss prevention employees, accompanied by counselors, all wearing headsets. The sight of the first group of people, shot a pain in my stomach that I never wanted to feel again. This happened to me two years ago. The devastation you feel after 7 years with a company to be cut loose so non-chalant, is something you don't forget. We all spent the day watching our friends, be led out of the building. People you thought would never be let go.

And then, it came. Our department meeting request. By lunch time, the word on the streets was, if you weren't invited to your department meeting, you were being let go. They would meet with the survivors to let them know cutbacks were done in the department. Guess who's name wasn't on the list? Mine. I had hoped lightning wouldn't strike twice, and I wouldn't get laid off again. I spent a long 15 minutes cleaning things off of my computer, running through my head what I would do. Then the meeting organizer's secretary came to tell me my name should have been on that list, that the outlook server went down when she sent it.

*sigh of relief*

Turns out, our particular department didn't cut anyone. I guess because we work with the field, and the vice presidents. There were a ton of changes implemented earlier this week, which as dumb as it sounds are confidential and I'm not gonna risk getting shit-canned for blogging.

The difference between my new job and my old job, is they didn't turn people out onto the streets with no clue what to do. They met with career counselors. They have job placement, severence, extended benefits, and counseling. We also, get counseling this week if we need it. They brought people in for us. It was a sickening day, and one can't help but wonder what will happen next.

Go out and buy jewelry people. It's for the greater good.

The rest of us? They cut some of our benefits, raised health care costs, and no raises this year. I'm happy to have a job, so none of this is going to make or break me.

Pee Ess..
Who watched Lost? OMG! Loved it! It's cool now to look back, like that dude last season building jacob's cabin, and had the nose bleed....now we know its from time travel, he wasn't a ghost he was just there from the past.

The dude in the beginning with the baby? That's totally Jin and his new wife. Obviously they went back and messed with stuff, and hes now with another woman, and never met Sun.

Locke? I think there is two of him. That's why they have to call him Jeremy Bentham. I can't wait to see who else comes back that died on the island!!!!!!

And Hurley's shirt? I heart shih-tzu's? Awesome. Me too.

I can't wait til we can for real time travel. Totally happening.

P.P.S. I really, really.....really, really want pizza. And coke. Coke and pizza. PMS is horrible when you have to drop 3lbs a week or get your ass chewed out.


Mike said...

But, I don't wear jewelry, Fizz. I'm glad you didn't lose your job... I did in October.

babylamb said...

I'm glad to hear you still employeed. I bet your heart was racing a 100 miles a minute. Mine sure was.

Deutlich said...

I freaking LOVE LOST!

Ms. Megan said...

So happy you didn't lose your job!! I went through 2 large cuts at my last job.... and I found out this weekend that I would have been part of the 3rd cut... so glad I got my new job when I did!

Life On Edge. said...

gosh I am so happy your name was on that list!! are you sure you don't deserve pizza? when it's like that I trade with myself: I eat that piece of pizza and I'll exercise 15 more minutes...
And when time travel exist, I'll travel forward, not backward. I was born too early anyway, only one planet for me to muse around - not enough.

merider (M.E.-rider) said...

Phew, Fizz! Glad you didn't lose your job. It is so scary for all of us. I worry about that and then I realized...worrying is useless. Yes, layoffs are so emotional and stressful. We've had some of that here as well, and I expect more.
Oh, and I hear ya - pizza and (rum and) coke would be so good about not. ;-)

Fizzgig said...

it makes great gifts! =)

mostly i felt like i had to poop!

yesssssss a fellow lostie!!!!!!!

ms megan:
it was destiny! I dont believe in luck!

life on the edge:
hmmm...that makes sense but i hate working out already! lol. I'm going to the sports bar tonight and have a yummy something, and a BEEEEEEER. I'll enjoy that more than coke!

i wish i could wake up tomorrow and everything was better economy-wise!

Mandy Lou said...

I've been there before and it's not fun (especially when you're one of the ones going instead of staying) - glad you made it through.

I totally skipped the lost part - I'm still trying to catch up with the old episodes I've got stuck in my tivo.

Erin said...

I am *SO* happy that your job is safe... it is a shame about all the others though :(