Monday, April 02, 2012
I'm Still Swimming in the Dating Pond..
I was called over to a coworkers desk during a lull today. She started asking me about dating. Since I'm the only single girl in the department that is actively dating, its fun for them to keep up with my goings on.
"Have you heard from schoolfriend after breaking it off?"
"What about..?"...(making a gesture to signify someone I dated..)
"Have you heard anything more from that one guy you met recently?"
"No, but he did tell me to call him if I was still alive, since I had to cancel our date due to the flu, but I didn't feel like calling him back"
"What about TDH?, anything more from him?"
"No, I quit responding to his texts, because any opportunity for conversation turned into wanting to know why I didn't want to date him exclusively, no matter how many times I said it wasn't happening for me."
"Has (an ex from a gazillion years a go that has recently turned up again, along with his fiance and 3 kids....some things never change) called you again?"
"No, I told him that I have more self esteem than to stoop to screwing around with someone else's baby-daddy."
After my inquisition, I thanked coworker for reminding me of my long strand of bad dates this this past year.
Isn't this suppose to be fun? Aren't your 30's suppose to be your PRIME?
I mean, I'm not getting any younger. I'd like to find the future Mr. Me while I still have all my teeth, and the ability to hilight away any gray hairs. Before I lose my charming girl next door looks, and the ability to wear a tank with a built in bra....without a bra.
I havn't given up on love. Quite the contrary. I am actually, just a woman that knows exactly what she wants. Looking for her little tadpole in the dating pond, who knows what he wants too.
The tadpole, that wants to swim around with me in the scummy dating pond, until we decide to become frogs...together.
And besides, what I want can't be put on paper. It can't be explained. I don't even know what to say to people when they ask me.
It's a feeling....
As long as I don't settle, I know that it will come into my life.
Here's to endless optimism, and a true belief in happy endings!