"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Nerves of Aluminum foil...

Heres why I am not cut out for "dating". I'm chicken shit.

I am awesome in email, I am open, and myself. On the phone, yes, I can be, if you call me.
But I don't give out my number because, after 10 years w/the same cell number, I'm pretty lucky I get no solicitations. So, you can't call me.

And, I'm scared.

I think someone said I should break out of my comfort zone. Which would be, you have a detailed profile, are handsome, manly, funny, and seem amazingly taken with me thru our correspondence.

Then we can talk on the phone for a bit/text.

Then we can meet.

I got the digits of a boy today. His profile is short, and pretty nonexistant. But weve had some great emails. He's a sexmuffin, no kids, never married, and 2 yrs older than me. Owns a house.

I think I'll stew about the digits forever. I am so scared about calling a boy I want to poop. When I get nervous or scared, that's my bodys way of letting me know I am, in case the sweaty palms, and rapid heart rate didn't give it away.

I dont know if you remember back when I met exnotsomuchamanfriend, but that was the most torturous time of my life meeting a "stranger".

It all started here.
And heres a reason to pay attention to your dreams. I dreamt I was exnotamanfriends next victem before we met!

In coming up with some links to my last online experience, I realized, holey shit I've been blogging 5 years.


Sister Copinherhair said...

That's ironic. Someone asked me just yesterday how long I have been blogging and I thought back and said, "Almost five years." Time does fly, huh?

Call him but block your number. Don't be afraid. Just meet in a very public place and have your "out" call ready if you need one. If he's weird, you never have to see him again.

Fizzgig said...

it does fly, and looking back ive come a long way! lol

my number is blocked, i pay for it to be private, so it doesnt come up...aaaaaaargh!

LiLu said...

What's a sexmuffin? It sounds delicious.

Teena in Toronto said...

Why do you have to jump into dating right away anyway? Enjoy your aloneness for awhile :)