"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Gone But Not Forgotten...

Last night I had the strangest dream (remember that song?) I couldn't afford to get my hair done so I went to some ghetto place with people who wore scrubs to do hair. I just wanted a trim to get me by, and the bitch put brown hair dye on half my head and I walked out with half dyed, half hilighted hair. Not having money completely blows.

I've been gone forever it seems. What have I been doing? Oh, I'm getting by. I happen to be in a superior mood due to the fantastic weekend. I havn't heard from CP in 3 days. He doesn't even deserve the name CP anymore. We can imagine it now stands for Cock something. Cus, let's face it anyone who lets me go without so much as a word, is a cock something.

I went out to meet a girlfriend at the bar Saturday night, and then another one invited me to a certain persons house for a party. The same one from last weekend.

I had a great time cus I had a few friends at the part as well.

I've pretty much decided it's over with me and the man, all that needs to be done is to say it. It's really hard to let go, but the longer we're apart the more I realize he wasn't right for me at all. He was good for the time being. But honestly in light of recent events (this includes my getting shit-canned) I realized I was the only one putting anything into the damned relationship. Fuck him.

Momma and Sis will be here tomorrow night! I am so excited about it I can't see straight. The bad part is I am always a mess when I leave, or they leave me after a visit. Being alone this time, is going to really hurt. Being alone, and jobless. Even worse.

The upside to losing your job? I'm now down 10 lbs. Yesterday I actually forgot to eat. Me. Forgot. It's not like I'm whithering away or anything, but even if I did eat I'd only shit it right back out. I'm a mess. I've been through much worse, so I will survive. I'll drag my ass out of bed once in a while to update my blog. Life doesn't feel right without blogging.


R said...

Good luck on the job hunt! I say who needs the man if he doesn't pay attention to you! You deserve better!

Have fun with momma and sis!

supplymadam said...

Thanks for keeping us posted. Hope you have a great Thanksgiving. Hope you also have good luck with the job search.

Just Expressing Myself said...

You're right life just doesn't feel right without blogging.
Sorry about the hair incident - hope you didn't pay her.
Sending good vibes your way,

Becca said...

Happy thanksgiving and have fun putting up your tree!