I hated leaving the manfriend this morning. What else is new. It's worse since it's chilly and he is so warm and cuddly and I want to steal him.
Anyhooo....this was yesterday at the office:
Me: "I'm proud of you guys, even with being backed up, and behind, you still finished some of your newsletters on the due date!!!"
Coworker: "Yea but we dont get anything for it!"
Me: "you get a 'job well done' from me "
And I had to sit down. Before I said, YOU AREN'T REWARDED FOR THINGS YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO DO. Or, "YOU GET TO KEEP YOUR JOB!" Sometimes I want to strangle people. Does this make me a bad supervisor?
Obviously, it doesn't because in my review, I got middle to high marks, for my first six months of being a supervisor. I've exceeded her expectations. Exceeded! I have goals and things I need to complete before my next review, which is scarey. Like, coming up with a process to streamlining some processes in the department.
But the only thing I have to work on is my people skills. Meaning...I'm not very empathetic. She didn't say that, but I'm big enough to know my own weaknesses. She said I need to nurture my relationships with my "people", and I am pretty sure that's what she meant. Also, I have to make myself the "go-to" girl in the department, throughout the company. The person who knows everything. I have to sell myself. I love a challenge. I've already started on this.
I know I havn't mentioned latley...that I am farted out with working out. I'm still doing it. Five.... Days..... A..... Week. But I'm to a point where I'm bored, you know, every few months I think I go through this. When I was super busy at work and working "overtime" I didn't stay after, I started doing lunch time workouts. Which is what I'm doing now. It's nice because I can go home after work. The only downfall is not getting over an hour workout in, because I have to shower at lunch, so they have been cut into 45 minutes.
Plus I'm working out all the time and not losing weight. (let me interject here and give myself some due props in that I HAVE lost 50lbs and kept it off for a year, and not GAINED it back..*pats back*..) So why am I not losing more weight? Well, I have a serious carb problem. Like, I eat potatos on bread. Or, rice on bread. Or noodles with bread. Make sandwhiches with everything. I can eat 4-5 peices of bread in a day. I could eat more, but part of me has a bit of sense. (if you can call that sensical) I love them. I try to be good and eat whole grain bread. Brown rice. Sugar free everything, salt free everything, unsalted butter (the real stuff). Whole wheat pasta. But, it really doesn't matter when you eat them in large quantities.
And, when even your favorite vegetables are carbs. What's a girl to do?
Is there a carb rehab? Because I should go thru detox. It's that bad. I can also predict that giving them up would make me a horrible person to be around. Send help?
P.S. I was late watching Big Brother. Anyone excited about the win? I'm super happy Keesha got the jury prize! And, Dan was my third choice for winning. After Renney and Keesha.