I'm having one of those moments. The one where it feels like everyone is paired off and you are the sole single girl. Only, I have a boyfriend. I just don't live with him. So I guess it feels like everyone is paired off in living arrangements, and I'm not.
Or, we're at that age where we all have our own lives, and its harder and harder to get together with friends, and more and more you are on your own. I like time to myself. But I also like to hang out with friends. I don't know.....do you get new friends, or are you expected to change too? I don't want to change. So there.
I'm at a weird spot latley, and I keep thinking it will pass but it doesn't. You know, people get married. They have kids. I don't know why it just seems that I've been on the outside of all these things. In a funk perhaps. (not with the kids thing, ok?)
My one friend says to me when I feel this way...."you've been married". As if I had my one shot at happiness and since that didn't work out for me, its OK if I never get married again.
I'm happy with my relationship. It's the rest of my life that is getting to me. The outside the relationship stuff seems to be lacking, and I don't know what you do for that. I think maybe I had two jobs for so long, because I didn't have another life. And it was an excuse.
Because I keep thinking about getting another job. As miserable as it made me, it is a distraction.