"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort

Thursday, May 28, 2009

I am a hater...

I used the word hate a lot.

I'm eating hershey's kisses. I really don't care either. You know there is 25 calories in one? It hardly seems worth it. Seeing how you can eat an entire snickers bar for like 200 calories. I'm not even hungry. I just ate a salad, 2 bananas, and a sugar free banana fudge pudding cup. (which was deee-lish!) I also have a red grapefruit to eat before I leave work. It's stress. I totally stress eat. I hate it. I'm full and I am sitting here eating kisses. I'd rather be getting them from my manfriend. That would lead to some calorie burning. Wink wink......

Speaking of burning calories. I have been back to running, with no foot pain. *cheers* for about a week. I'm also up to running for 40 minutes straight. The other 10 I walk fast warm up/cool down. While it almost makes me pass out, I feel good having reached this accomplishment. Instead of 4 miles an hour, I am doing 4.25 miles in 50 minutes. Progress. I don't like it though. I actually hate it. Plus I'm doing weights a couple days a week. I hate that too.

I've been doing every other day the 50 minute run, and the other days, I run for 20, and do the eliptical 15, and bike 15. Have I mentioned that I still despise working out? Cus um, I do. I can understand how people get to be 1,000 lbs. It's taken me 2 years to lose 72 lbs, and I've been holding at that spot for months. It's frustrating. It's sweaty. It's long. It's tedious. I hate it.

I talked to my new dentists Mom last night. She's an old friend from my last job. She said her daughter told her I am just gorgeous, and the same size as her now. (her daughter is way skinny) I said well, hardly, but I have lost a lot of weight. I guess the payoff is nice, but I hate the ride. I could just pass out when I'm done working out. I don't get that endorphine high. I know I have to be doing something wrong because most people feel energized from a workout.

I also hate buying new clothes. I really don't enjoy shopping.

I'm still planning on winning the lottery. I'll let you know how this works out for me. When I do, I'm going to hire someone to work out for me. I'll also let you know how that works out. It sounds good.


Narm said...

When you win the Lottery don't forget about the little people.

Meaning me.

I'm short and kinda touchy about it so lay off, ok?

Season said...

Congrats on the running. I'm working my way there slowly :) You hate shopping? That's insane... lol!

Mike said...

If I didn't know better, I'd say you're full of hate. ;)

Carolyn G said...

Ummmm, that lottery is mine! Back off. I would buy a snickers though if I won. ;)

Erin said...

You have come such a long way, when someone compliments you - learn how to say Thank You and feel good about it :-)

And by the way, 25 calories is totally not worth it for that tiny piece of candy... I'd take the snickers bar over that any day, lol!

Fizzgig said...

I wont forget about the little people. I have a great memory. That doesn't mean I'll be giving anyone money though.

i know, i have buyers guilt. i blame being poor so long i feel irresponsible to spend money. Thats why im sure im going to win the lotto.

im usually full of hate where working out is concerned. I try to be positive most of the time. but it oozes out.

well well, there is enough to go around. I can win the ohio lottery and you can win something else. I dont have to have the mega millions, id be happy with a few hundred thousand.

i know, especially when you can eat 8 in a second, and not even get any peanut butter goodness, or carmely deliciousness.