Nature Is So Adorable...

I rented March of The Penguins. If you have the slightest interest in animals, watch this movie. It is only the cutest thing ever! Penguins are funny, adorable, and dedicated! I never knew I'd enjoy just watching them live. They make really unique noises. They fall in love, they mate, they play. They even fight over men because there aren't enough.
They lose chicks and go crazy and try to steal another woman's chick and the tribe protects them. It's amazing. Some parts are sad, like when the predators come around, but I've honestly never seen such a cute documentary! They mate for a year. They do adorable cuddley things together, and walk around on their heels to protect their eggs. They are very interesting animals to watch. I loved it!!!! It isn't at all boring, it's interesting, informative, cute, sad, and beautiful. I just can't say enough about it! It's like watching little black and white people!

One more chance, go here and watch the trailer! CUTE!

I'm working on a new stained glass window. It was always hard on my hands to do the leading part, but now with typing all night, it's even worse. I'm doing one that is a random pattern, and all blues, dark on the outside, to lightest on the inside, to a few clear spots in the middle. I think it'll look awesome! I'm excited. I'm going to get some more paints today, and that's about it!

Oh, Im gonna make stir fry. Semi healthy. Low sodium soy, fried rice w/egg white only, and chicken and broccoli. No oil. We'll see if CP even notices.


I had to call off my second job Friday, cus I was stuck at job 1 until 5. I had too many things to finish before I left it was one hell of a freaking day!

Speaking of adorable nature, and love....here is my lovebuns Chelsea and Boo's being cuddlebuns! They sleep nose-to-nose a lot in their wooley cat beds!

The Good, The Bad, The Happy And The Sad.....

So it doesn't suck so bad today. I talked to my sister about whats bugging me, which was nice to get off my chest. I don't need to carry any more weight there than I do already thankyouverymuch! I'm already becoming a hunch back!

And, I discovered yahoo radio. I took my radio to job 2 so I can listen to cassettes, there is more cassette books available. I just read 'Tell Me Lies' by Jennifer Cruise. Awesome book. Go read it now! Theres adultry, hot sex, embezelment, murder.....what more do you need?

Yahoo radio. Yes, I've listened to online radio before. Yahoo, lets you create your OWN station! MINE? How can you be in a bad mood, when you hear Edwin playing? Yes, I said Edwin, "I Want It All". This is big business to me, they never play this on the real radio. And it was one that CP said was perfect for me. *smile* (lyrics below cus you know you love Edwin too!)

BTW you may view Madonna's performance w/the Gorillaz here. I dunno how long it'll be up there. But I heard people say when you are almost 50 you shouldn't wear a leotard.
I say, when you look like that no matter how old you are, by all means, wear one! The people who sit their fat asses on the radio and judge others, shouldn't wear a leotard. She still has it! Hard to believe she has 2 kids. And yes, she is singing. Imagine that, people still sing during live performances! Oh Madonna, will you marry me?

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She's got an inner child

A little tame and a whole lot of wild.

But as crazy as it is, it is who she is.

And she smiles and she frowns.

She's sunshine and she's clouds.

Emotional to say the least, but that's ok with me.

'Cuz when I fell, I fell hard for every part.

From the beauty in her eyes to the love that's in her heart.

The good, the bad, the happy and the sad.

Her perfections, her every little flaw.

I want it all.

Sometimes the lighting lies

And she found some new laugh lines.

But whenever she asks me, it's only beauty that I see.

And when she falls asleep

I know she'll dream a little dream of me.

And in the morning she will see

that it's easy to believe

The good, the bad, the happy and the sad.

It's Finally Over....

The week went fast! I hope to get my car fixed this wknd. CP did the carpets yesterday. It's nice! Lately I havn't been feelin' the love. It really sucks when that BS starts to happen. I'm so exhausted. I went to bed alone, and woke up alone. I vaguely remember CP asking for some blankets some time in the night or morning, but it could have been my imagination. Was he really there? Who knows.

I dreamt about TWDSO. We were friends, joking around with CP. I said it was a dream, as if it would ever happen. Anyone want a great deal on an ebay item?

They are bringing my team back at job 2! I asked to be on it! I'll get to make bank my last few months there! I'm hoping at least, it's my last few months there. We'll see! Don't count your chickens before they hatch and all that great stuffl.

So I get our electric bill. $256. Mind you, I have no gas, so that includes heat, and while I appreciate that I dont have a $400 heat bill, I'm still pissed off. It's been 120, and now its $256? CP was off for over a month, jacking up the heat, thinking it was no big deal, now its 256! They can fuck right off cus we are living in the dark ages as it is!

I have been way intolerant of the cold lately. Maybe that is because every other week, its 60 degrees, then it snows? I'm not sure but that just might be it.

Today sorta sucks so far, so that's all I got.

Knockin' On Heavens Door...Or Would It Be Hell?....

Most certainly, when you almost die, first you want to be sure you will be going to heaven. If there is a heaven. Second, you want to be sure you have on clean underwear. Being that I'm on my period, I had two strikes against me.

My brush with death came tonight. On my way home from my fucking second job, how appropriate. It snowed maybe 3 inches. We drove thru the mountains in WV in some treacherous weather, and had no near death experiences. I guess driving your car when your wheel bearings are bad, and your ABS goes out at will, and your traction system is disabled, you have bad rotors, and need a new caliper, isn't such a swell idea!

I went home main roads just to be safe. I don't tailgate. I was going 30 in a 45, the roads weren't bad, I have no idea what happened. I lost control of my car right in front of the fucking Green police department. The place that charges the most fucking taxes around, and they can't salt the God damn roads? It snows twice this winter, and we can't put salt out? Normally they try to tell us that they ran out of salt. Um, hello? What the fuck is up?

I've been lucky in my driving career in that I havn't had any serious accidents. I caused one, unscathed (kat was with me) and I was rear ended. I think I had a sign from God tonight, because honestly, I was thinking today about if there was one. I do that a lot. Cus, I'm confused about what I believe. Then, this happens.

I dunno how many times I fishtailed, but every time, I'd turn into it, because that was all that was in my head, my back end would come up the other way and it was back and forth several times before finally, I went off the road, which was my ultimate goal. Right in front of the police department. A few more feet and I'd have been going down a hill, and in serious trouble. I'm lucky that I was driving slow and the line of traffic behind me was smart enough to back off. I'm lucky no traffic came in the other lane because I was over there a couple of times. I remember I closed my eyes once, and thought I'm hit because I knew people were behind me.

Scared. The. Living. Shit. Out of me. It's over an hour later, and I'm still shaking, and scared. I had to stop at Giant Eagle to cry. I was afraid to go home.

Of course, first thing I said to the furkids was they are lucky Mommy didn't die tonight because no one would ever love them like I do. I'm such a kick ass mom! And, lucky for them I went to the feed store on lunch so they all had their yummies!

Mommy would have died starving. Having only had time for a bag of combos today, I would have haunted earth forever in search of one last Suzy Q. Or Reese Cup. Or, potato (made any way I'm not particular). Or, glass of wine.

I'm drinking wine. Boxed wine from Kat on my bday. I havn't killed that fucker yet. It's still trucking! I think, every fridge should have a box of wine, always. It's fresh til the last drop. Guaraneed. For real! In my brush with death, I have seen the light. I will always have wine. Yessir! And, God likes wine, cus they serve it in church. How can it be bad? I Needless to say I'm drinking. Did I mention the wine is good? Tomorrow is gonna suck! But, I'm glad I have a tomorrow!

I need to have a will for the kids sake. If I do die, they can't be separated. I'll be one of those kooks that leaves everything to them. And, my family will hate me because I didnt give them anything, it's all for the pets!! My sister is my beneficiary, so she'd have to be nice to her neices and nephews to get all that bank I got coming. (I'm a dreamer)

Today's Question:

What's your brush with death story?

An Intimate Look Into My Tivo....

I was working on my template during the outage last night. I havn't had time to do anything more, so deal with it.

I got off work last night! No work! Left Early! Suprised CP who was asleep when I got home and wasn't happy to see me with his grumpy ass, so I went for a walk to return my library books and get more. It was a longer walk in the bitter cold than I thought. But it felt great! When I got home, I cleaned, for 3 hours. I can't even enjoy time off work. If I sat down to watch TV I'd feel like I had to do something. That, and I had some massive crampage, which keeping moving seemed to help. I kept thinking, I have such and such hours til I have to go to bed, what else can I do? I did 2 loads of laundry and put them away, washed my shower curtain, dried it with a HAIR DRYER cus I wanted it to look nice, swept, dishes, dust, etc....

One of my coworkers is leaving us. I got misty when she told me. She started right after I did, and we've been here almost 6 years. She was the first in our department, she knew everything. It's depressing! People should respect the fact that I hate change, and not fuck shit up!

My friend Katie called me this wknd to see the difference between DVR and TiVo as she is looking to get a new system, and hadn't had TiVo before. I am a freaking dork, and had taken pictures of my stuff last month, so today, I share this with you!



This is TiVo. He is shiny, and silver. He has a cute TiVo guy on the front. TiVo goes well with other silver appliances, such as my DVD player as shown here, and my pretty TV. I love that cat under the TV.




TiVo will make your wishes come true. He aims to please. Simply make some shit up and enter it in, and TiVo keeps an eye out for shows that sound like what you want. As seen here, I have Orlando Bloom, and Edwin McCain to name a few. TiVo will find anything they are in for me. Whether interview, movie, or music. I also have one for each movie category in case I want to look for a good drama. TiVo will auto record anything you tell it to. You can also say, read about things in Entertainment Weekly, and create a wish list for it. Months before it will come on. As seen here, with Desperate Housewives, and Grey's Anatomy, which I never deleted.



This is your season pass manager. I have 30 shows recording weekly. Sure, DVR has one. But TiVo lets you set priorities to your recordings. In case someone else (not naming names) wants another show to record that is gay, (see, 'numbers' #25) on a day when you are recording something awesome, TiVo knows YOUR show is more important. You can also record 2 shows at once like DVR. Tivo also has a season premiere feature that will show you when all the season premiere shows begin.



The best feature of TiVo for me, is suggestions. When there isn't jack shit on to watch, TiVo will tell you what he thinks you should watch. He bases this on the shows you watch, have to record, or set in wish lists. As you see here, TiVo thinks I'll like Seinfeld, King of Queens, E! True Hollywood Story, and so on. TiVo is right, I like all of those shows! If you aren't a freaking TV junkie such as me, you can have TiVo just record anything it thinks you'll like, so, when you get home, it'll have found you all sorts of treats to view!!!

Another fun thing, is if you are watching live TV, which no one does much these days....and there is a movie preview on, TiVo will give a thumbs up, and say to press it for more info. If you press it, it takes you to another screeen and gives you inside information on that movie. And when it's done, it takes you back to live TV w/o missing a thing.

It also will do a similar thing during TV show previews, allowing you to record with a simple thumbs up, not having to set anything up on your own. New show...wanna record? Sure!

Today's Question:

What is your favorite TV feature?

Suggestions!

I'm Just About To Resume Life As I Knew It......

Another week. Ugh. Know what the good news is? THIS IS OFFICIALLY WEEK ONE OF THE LAST 2 MONTHS OF MY SECOND JOB!!!!!! I will once again resume having a life! And, it'll be 2 months before I see Edwin, so I got time to get into shape for him.

If I had any ounce of energy I'd do another dance. CP started back to work SATURDAY!!!!! So, I can finally start the countdown to quitting work! It'll just fly by! Uh huh, Uh huh!

Besides making my curtains this wknd (see next post below)I didn't do a whole lot. Sat. afternoon I met Kat and we went to a new restaurant called Bravo. It isn't open yet it was a test run so the food was 50% off. My food alone was 9 bucks, but it wouldve been 21! It was fancy schmancy, but not too fancy for jeans! I had the most delicious chicken, with tuscan mashed potatos and real steamed green beans, and we shared the best cheesecake ever. It had a carmelized crust on the outside, OMG. YUM! I rarely go out and when I do I'm usually taken out. So Kat had a good laugh on me when I didn't know which check to take with me after signing for my meal. She said 'Merchant copy, Customer copy' and so, I signed the customer copy and kept the merchant. What? like it matters?

Tayray's ex is in town. One of our friends got an attitude with her and I because we didn't want to go out with him. Ummm, what's the problem here? I don't hang out with my friend's exes. period. I'm sure this friend would've hated us if we went out w/her ex! And to get mad at Tayray? Why the hell does she want to see him? Amazing how some people can make everything about them.

I got to work today and half the parking lot is empty. We got like 2 inches of snow, not the 14 inches predicted. I think everyone is hung over, from drinking themselves into oblivion. You know, a sin has been committed against our state. Pittsburgh won the superbowl. I could give a shit less, but I find it humorous, that people around here act like we're in high school. Instead of a rival school, it's an entire state. People honestly wish those players harm, and their families harm. It's a game people. One which, you have no control over! It makes me hate the teams of this state more than I do. Poor sportsmanship! I only know this, cus they cut into all my shows yesterday and I had to record everything til midnight to catch Grey's Anatomy. Cus, with football see, if they actually played the game, would only last an hour or so. With all the BS it's 4 hours = FUCKING HATE!

I'm happy to report, that in 2 months, I'll have had an ENTIRE YEAR with no sports! It'll be the happiest year of my life!

My show rocked! (greys anatomy) It was a cliffhanger. I fucking hate those. I did get to see the cool previews for Lost too. If I was stupid, and didn't watch Lost, I would watch it now from the preview. Do people really know what they are missing? I think not!!!!

I had to let out Taray's pupper, Rocky Road last night and this morning. I didn't say he'd GO out! He was such a brat! All his hair stuck up on his back and he growled at me viciously, I didn't get scared I told him he was a good pretty boy, lets go potty outside and get treats! He went upstairs and sat his big butt on the couch. I gave him a bunch of treats and tried getting him to go outside, forever. He wasn't having any part of it. He has never NOT gone potty for me! He must've really missed his momma!

I got my first bridal magazine!!!! But the cover was entirely diamond rings. What would you do? My best friend was on the cover of the damn thing!! That's good marketing! Got some cuuuuuuuute ideas! The good thing about having a small, small wedding, is I'll get to do a lot more with decorating!! LOVES IT!

I also found some ideas for a wrap for a wedding band. I might have to have it made. It's harder than I anticipated to find something I like for an emerald cut. I wanted 3 of the same stone, now, I want Baguettes on either side to resemble emerald cut, but have a different look. CP said, when I showed him a couple, "AS LONG AS I DON'T HAVE TO BUY IT" I said, you could just not marry me you know, cus that will be FREE! Men are so insensitive!!!!!! ASS!!!!!!!!!!!

Today's Question:

What is the cruelest thing you have ever done to a friend?

The one that sticks out in my mind is smashing an egg in the back of her car while egging another friend. Or maybe it was the friend we egged was the worst thing? She wasn't really a friend so that doesn't count.

The Next Martha Stewart...

So I did my first real project, in that I made something functional. I made new curtains for my bedroom. JoAnn had a half off sale, so I got the material for $27!! What a bargain! They are far from perfect, I didn't put a topper on top or whatever, but it's my first try. I know better for next time. I used fusable webbing, from Kat, so I didn't sew a thing! They took me 5 hours to make.


The cat's always lend their help on any project. Fozzie and Fizzgig.



The Iron became my best friend. I took up shop in the laundry room where there is less cat hair!



The quilt my Momma made me that inspired my room colors. Isn't it purdy?



Viola! Done! I hung my fung shuei bells on my curtain rod.




The hooks came out the wall and its bowing, their heavy.




The finished product! I need a new curtain rod now, they are way heavier than the shears I had up, and it looks kinda dumb bowing in the middle. (that's lil Billy)



The bed, minus headboard. My new down comforter that I LOVE! (yea, and the dog)



I call this E.T. Is that Hello Kitty or a dog?

All in all a success. I had fun doing the curtains, I'll definately be making more. Then I'll move on to recovering some chairs the cats destroyed. They aren't noticeably crooked, which is a bonus!

I'm Letting Me Off The Hook...

Ring...Ring. Hello, me? Yes? You're off the hook. No shit? Thanks!

So, I'm letting myself off the hook. I'm realizing that everyone has limitations. I have always been a bit of a 'workaholic'. I think the truth is, I've always been overly responsible with work. It's not a bad thing. It's not terrific either, on the personal life.

I think that the time that CP is off work is nearing an end. Few more weeks. It's good, in that when I wake up in the morning, I won't think instantly how I loathe the fact that he is peacefully sleeping in a nice warm bed, with a warm doggie, while I'm pissed off that I even have to get up, and work two jobs. I won't have to resist the urge to kick him awake and act like I don't know what happened.

He's been helping around the house. When I leave a list. He is no ME, but then if there were TWO of ME the world wouldn't know what the fuck to do! His idea and my idea of clean are different, but I do appreciate that he is helping, and like a good fiance, I let him know this.

Guilt. I can't in good conscience, sit while someone is working. At home, or on the job. I feel like I should be up helping work too. Maybe it's the 'spank's' fault, for making us keep up a fair workload percentage? Or, maybe it was my days at Taco Bell, where they pounded the phrase 'TIME TO LEAN TIME TO CLEAN' into my brain.

I get down on myself for everything. I've stopped getting mad that I don't work out as much as I'd like to. At least I'm doing SOMETHING. If I were working 1 job and I came home and laid around, I think I could get mad at myself. But honestly, I don't have the time. I don't. And, I'm done trying to pretend that I do.

If everything is pretty on the outside, no one will suspect that I'm not perfect! But I've always been un-perfect. I'm the same me I have always been, with some new added options. So who am I really trying to impress here? Me?

God, getting old really has given me some insight!

My car problems! It's a bad wheel bearing we got. Have to return the part, and replace both bearings with better parts, and I need new rotors. It'll cost $170 for CP to do it since I already bought one wheel bearing. My control arm, bushings, and CV joints are all smooth sailing.

I got a pension plan at job 2. I can't access it for 5 years, so I really don't care much about it. I didn't worry about where to put the money, so I invested all the money in Exxon. I'd love to see how much that fucking pension turned into in a few years!!!

Job one is changing a lot, we're moving into the 21st century, and it's pretty cool! I'm going to a pre-opening of a restaurant w/Kat tomorrow. It should be fun! That hooch is going to Italy. I told her she has to ride a gondala like Madonna in Like A Virgin. If she gets discovered, I get half the profits!

Today's Question:

What would you most like to change in your house?

Well besides I'd love a house that stayed clean all the time, I'd like to have second bathroom downstairs!

You Must Be My Lucky Star!...

What does Thursday mean to me? by: Me
Thursday means, I am dead tired from working all week, and people tend to tell me I look like crap which is always something you want to hear. Thursdays suck the most.

I got home last night, CP had the heat upstairs at 60. That was ok, 60 is the limit. But, it was so....HOT in there. So I checked the downstairs living room.......65. THATS SIXTY FIVE! SIX, then a FIVE!!!!!!!!!! I was so pissed! He figured out that it does stay warmer with the downstairs heat on and the upstairs down, but he had them BOTH up! Then, he had the heat in the bathroom on 50! FIFTY! IN THE BATHROOM! I NEVER have the heat on in there!!! He said again he didn't have the heat in the bathroom on. Cus, someone keeps breaking in and turning it up. I wish they'd quit!

I heard a rumor. MADONNA is going to be touring. Now, she came year before last, round the East Coast. Tickets? Oh, a mere 230 bucks a peice. Guess how hard it is to try and find someone to shell out that sort of money to see a concert! No one would go with me! She came to Pittsburgh, and New York, both acceptable distances for me to travel on a mini-vacation.

Will I miss Madonna again? No, I wont.

I'm a 30 year old independant woman. I am capeable of doing lots of things on my own, and I think that this time around, come hell or high water I'm going to see my childhood idol. I dunno if I will be alive next year! I dunno if she'll be alive next year. I can travel alone. And, I'm sure I'd run into fellow FANS at the concert. I really don't care. I'm going. It is my new goal. How the hell do I expect to be buddies with her, if we have yet to meet?

I can use the power of the internet as help. I am going to join some fan groups, and start networking. I might meet someone to go with in another city. I might find a free place to stay. Madonna fans rock! I also, might get abducted, and hacked into a billion peices, but if God loves me, this will be AFTER I get to see the concert. It's just wrong to die before fulfilling a dream.

My car.

CP is taking it today to get an estimate, and full details of the crap thats wrong with it. I think Celina's hubby said CV joints..the mechanic seems to think so too so he quoted $225 to fix that. But he said there is a few more things it could be on my car that are common. That's for the new problem, the clicking, that started after replacing the wheel bearing.

They are also going to try and pin point the original problem, that we thought was the wheel bearing. The guy said it could be as simple as the tires. It sounds like amplified road noise. No grinding. Not that the tires is any better of a problem to have, seeing how new tires cost more than most parts!!

Driving home last night, I braked like I usually do a nice easy step on the brake, and my ABS came on like as if the road were slick, then all the stupid lights came on. Scared the shit out of me that's for sure, but it still stopped, I just didn't expect that going 35mph!

So I had to make a list of what my car is doing. When the stupid lights come on, which is, whenever they feel like it, and noises it makes. I said do I have to write the noises down? Can you do mmmmmmmmm, tk tk tk tk tk, vmmmmmmmm properly?

My car is a 2001. It only has 56 thousand miles on it, I got screwed. Although, I had it for 3 years, and this is the first time ANYTHING has gone wrong with it at all. I spose I'm lucky. But I like to complain!

I had a fantastic night. CP got a lot done at home! It always puts a smile on my face to see he worked! And...he put a pretty big smile on my face in other ways but we won't get into that!

I gave him a quick kiss and took Billy Butt (my dog, Little Hill) for a walk. I decided, I miss walking! I use to walk w/Tayray every night after work. Only for 1/2 hour, but it's better than nothing! So, we'll head out again tonight. Billy got sick, so CP made her beef and rice, and she scarfed it down. I think she was starved. I locked her out of the cat food, so she'd rather starve than dare eat her own food. KIDS!

Lost being a re-run fucking sucked! We got caught up on American Idol, and the biggest loser though.

Today's Question:

Where is the dirtiest place you've ever been?

In terms of poverty-like dirty, Cancun, Mexico. Sure, the resort area is beautiful, but go a distance, and see people living in boxes, with carpets for roofs. We had to go 'downtown' to a Western Union cus we ran out of money, and it was a pretty scarey sight.