"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort










Saturday, February 23, 2008

giveth and taketh away...

Friday it was official, I got the supervisor position at work. I also was approved for a raise, still don't know the amount but my boss said it should be significant enough that I don't have to work my second job. This made me say hallelujah! I was excited and on top of the world all day. Nervous, happy, hopeful. All the usual emotions. The girls also took it pretty well but we are also operating under the impression this is temporary until my boss is back from her leave of absence. They don't know that she won't be coming back to the department.



Today, I took the dog to the vet. The usual. Ear infection, skin yadda yadda. I was talking with a new vet about how she is chronically itchy and having ear infections, and that steroides were the only thing that helped her, and I understand the risk to her liver but she is old, and she doesn't need to be uncomfortable all the time, and she agreed.



Then she did an examination, and found that all of her lymph nodes are enlarged. She said that some skin diseases can cause this to happen and she certainly has that in her favor, but I opted not to have them biopsied, because the usual bill for all her issues is already $200. There is a good chance that she has lymphoma, and I had to decide what to do for her, which wasn't easy. If I chose to treat it with steroides, which will also help her incessant itching, chemo would be out of the question, because it hinders its effectiveness.



I decided that I would do the steroides. She's 12, and realistically, doesn't have much time to live as it is, and chemo would be hard on her. It would also put me in the poor house. I can't really see that she would benefit from going through all of that, and in the meantime, be miserable and itchy with swollen ears. The vet said that the lymph nodes could decrease in size since she is on steroides, but without the biopsy we can't know for sure if it's cancer.



I'm being optomistic, and not thinking it's cancer. If it is she only has a couple of months to live, and I can't wrap my mind around that right now. I'm just going to give her the medicine, use reiki (which she hates!) and be positive. I hope that it doesn't come down to me having to decide to put her to sleep, that is the worst part of having pets.



Me and my punkinhead sharing a smootch!

6 comments:

Samantha said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. I hope she turns out ok.

Bianca said...

Yay promotion! That's so awesome!

I'm sorry about your puppy. :( At least she's got the love of a good mommy.

Suzi said...

I'm so sorry about your doggy's (possible) prognosis. That's so rough. Fortunately, she won't likely feel any different, because you'll be keeping her happy and comfy with medicine. I think she should get a little ice cream cone every day, too :-) She is so cute!

Great news about your job! That must be such a huuuuge relief.

EC said...

Hey, that is fabulous!!!!!! Congrats on the new job AND the new raise... Let's hope you can finally quit that 2nd job!

I'm so sorry about your dog though :( I hope its not cancer :(

Kentucky Girl said...

Gosh I hope for your sanity that you can give up that second job! I know it must be driving you batshit crazy.

Sooo sorry to hear about the pupper's possible diagnosis. They just don't understand what is happening to them and that makes me sooo sad to see them that way. I just want to kiss it and make it all better for them. :( Just give her lots of loves and keep her as happy and comfortable as you can. Poor baby...

babylamb said...

Congrat's on the new promotion...
Yeah!
Hopefully they will give you a kick ass raise and you can quit job #2 and tell us more about your guy.