"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort










Monday, November 29, 2010

passively agress this...

This blog, has been successfully "anonymous" for almost 6 years. Sure, through the years you become friendly with the people who you read, and become friends..but rarely do you actually know them in real life. That's the beauty of having a blog.

Strangers don't know your friends, or exes that you talk about. Strangers only know what you allow them to know. What you share, is obviously one sided, and my point of view, this is my place, and that's what it is for.

It's come to my attention that this is no longer the case. All along I've kept a very journal-esque type format here, holding nothing back, saying whats on my mind. The anger I feel over a break up and the rejection I feel and express here, are my choice.

We've all been hurt in our lives. How I choose to deal with hurt is my choice.

Having a blog is a risk, sure, it's public. But to some who be visiting here now, this has been sent to you by one of your friends...a mutual friend.

I didn't create this blog to make 'him' look bad which is how this was presented to you all. I had this for several years before I even met 'him'. And it chronicles way more than just our lives together. The fact that I posted  "the letter"  he left do dump me, is my choice. It's my letter. It was the only explanation I was left with for ending what I felt was a perfectly good relationship. The fact that he shared it with all of you via my blog was his choice, and until then, it was and would've remained anonymous to people we know in real life.

He was a mixed up fellow, our relationship was amazing, and I continue to have a hard time getting over it.


5 comments:

Bird Shit and Baby Caca said...

Like you said, it was your letter and what you choose to do with it is up to you...no one knows the guy and it's your way of venting and getting outside views on the situation

mylittlebecky said...

dude that sucks. i don't even know what to say other than people can suck a lot. and you do not suck. therefore YOU WIN!

Fizzgig said...

Bird:
I agree. Surely it'd be different had i posted his picture and phone number or something. Or um, even his name.

Becky:
I like the way you think!

Teena in Toronto said...

I'm such a private untrusting (ha!) person that I don't get too deep in my blog and give away anything too personal ... it's just about things that catch my attention.

I used to keep a diary when I was about 14. My mother found it and read it because "it was her right". It was just boring stuff but still I felt sooo violated that I ripped it up and never put my personal thoughts down anywhere again.

merider (M.E.-rider) said...

blogs are risks, Fizz, even if all you write about is your toenail - someone you know may read it and be offended. This is why I invited my Dad to read mine from the beginning. I figured that if I couldn't say what I had to say in front of my Dad, then I wouldn't say it. Of course, I'm an odd duck - there is nothing I wouldn't say in front of my Dad, so there you have it. Keep on keeping on and don't worry about the letter. You have never used the guys name, so really, it is still anonymous.