"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort

Monday, September 19, 2011

How Communication helps...

Things are still going well with TDH. But it's kinda like he is a friend I like to make out with on occasion.

It's hard telling if I am just comparing the spark I had with exmanfriend to the lack of an instant spark with him. Sometimes I don't like to give things a chance. Sometimes I get so caught up in "meant to be" and forget just living in the moment.

I'm good at that. Mostly because the last time I was in love I got burned. Alive. At the stake. With some added fuel. While the burner pointed and laughed.

TDH is moving alot closer in a couple of weeks. It doesn't seem to excite me, I'm just not that into him I guess?

Where this goes, only time will tell. In the meantime though...I vow to enjoy dating. To stop trying to make everything fit into a perfect little box. Let myself like someone. See where things go. Let loose. If he turns out to be an asshole, not like it's something new to me, right? If it turns into more, bonus! I'm not married. I'm not yet an old haggard cat lady. I'm in the best time of my life, and I just need to go with it.


Sandra said...

I love that I finally get to see a picture of you! You are so pretty! And yes, enjoy dating and don't label it. If I had a quarter for all the men I dated and all the expectations I had, I'd be...well, I could probably afford an ice cream bar, but that's not the point...

Anonymous said...

Damn, you're a beautiful woman. I hope you find love and happiness.

Fizzgig said...

thanks lady, that's very kind! Well if I had a quarter, I could buy a bottle of Moscato, and I'm thinking about making those dickbags pay up!

why thank you i think this is the first nice anonymous comment ever.

Teena in Toronto said...

That's great that he'll be closer so you can see if it truly can develop into something.