"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Wedded Bliss..

The rehearsal, and wedding were just perfect. Topped off by spending it with the cute boy I like, who was also in the wedding. Dancing, laughing, talking. Hearing everyone say how cute we are "together" (to which I'd reply...we aren't technically "together") And my friends that were there that hadn't spent much time with him, decided they just loved him, and his infectious smile, and fun personality. Even my MOM likes him and she's the pickiest person I know.

I kinda like those things too.

Too bad he is afraid of committment. This situation is screaming with undertones of the exassholemanfriend, and his fear of letting the past go. I mean, we talk all the time about how much we like each other, how much fun we have together...but the bottom line is, he always tells me he is afraid. We talk about how we want to be exclusive, but really the only thing different than what we have now, and being a "booty call" is we spend more time together before, and after.

I'm not a part of his life. He thinks about me when we aren't together, but we aren't together an awful lot.

How long does one wait around for a scared person? Last one I waited three years for, only to be dumped mid-move in! And new guy is all about starting a family, but we're not getting any younger, and he's not getting any less afraid.

Aside from all the fun I had over the weekend it was unfortunatly overshadowed by a really shitty turn of events, where the least of my worries was that my purse was stolen practically out from under my nose at a bar. New guy ran after the douche and luckily was coming back with my purse by the time I got to the door.

The cops were waiting on him outside, apparently he had been trying this on other people at a bar next door.

All I can say is that I know everything happens for a reason, and I'll get through the BS I am dealing with and live to enjoy another day. I can't change the events, I can only accept them, and move on with my life!


mylittlebecky said...

sounds like it might be kind of going in the right direction.

Sister Copinherhair said...

Enjoy his company but keep your eyes open to everyone around you (helps from having your purse stolen too ;)) because you just don't know who you may bump into. And keep yourself open to seeing other people.

Fizzgig said...

i guess time will tell!

except that two months ago we had the "exclusivity" talk. I am just wondering when we have the "this exclusivity thing isnt very beneficial, so maybe we should be open to dating other people should the situation present itself, because i dont want to be stuck in something that isnt moving forward" talk

Teena in Toronto said...

Why do you have to put all your eggs in one (his) basket?! Enjoy the time you spent with him but take some of the pressure off yourself by keeping an eye out for someone else to spend time with.

Carolyn G said...

If you are good with how the relationship is now, keep it that way. But you are having doubts for a reason. Follow your gut and instinct. ANd I agree with Teena, keep the options open. You are young so enjoy!