Monday, September 17, 2012
Making Dreams a Reality....I'm Doing It!!...
Let's face it. While I may feel as though I am still 21, I'm pushing 37!! (not very hard though, I am not trying to get there very fast...)
There are a lot of things I keep putting off because "I might meet the right person one day and everything will fall into place". I guess there comes a time in your long-term singledom, when you have to let go of those foolish hopes, and face reality.
While I'm still a firm believer in love, and of getting everything that you want, the "someone" may come far later in life.
In the meantime...I'm getting kinda sick of waiting on things. I'm somewhat impatient.
Most women my age would see this as a time to start looking for other ways to have kids because we are 'getting old'. Me? Not so much!
I want to take an exotic trip!! I soooo want to see the world, and I keep banking on meeting the right guy to go with me! (mine is not the life with friends of liesure that can pick up and go, or I'd have been gone on said trips, long ago!)
This week.. I had the most amazingly vivid dream of traveling to Antigua. I may be slightly ashamed to say that, before my dream, I had never even heard of this place. Which makes this dream even more amazing!! I remember every detail, smell, color, and experience like I was actually there!! Then google helped me feel the connection.
And so...In 2013...I am booking a trip to the Carribean solo!! Antigua? Maybe. Punta Cana? Perhaps...All I know is, that my sometime is no longer waiting on a future Mr. Me to come. My sometime is now!
Am I terrified? Yes!!!!!! I don't even dine out alone down the street!! But do I want to wait around on something that I really want to do, in the hopes that maybe I'll meet a guy that will go with me? HELL NO!!!
Life is far too short to wait around.
I am perfeclty OK with spending all my time at the resort, lounging by the pool or, enjoying the crystal blue ocean, sipping cocktails and reading trashy magazine articles, or the next best thing since "50 Shades of Grey".
I am looking at this as an "Under The Tuscan Sun" experience. I love that movie! And while I don't expect to find love on my solo vacation, I expect to find myself, and be so freaking proud that I did something I never in a billion years thought I could do.
I have not felt more excited, or alive since making this decision!
This seems terrifying to me.. But it's the times we step outside our comfort zone when the most amazing things happen.
And I am so ready to take that step!!