"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort

Monday, September 17, 2012

Making Dreams a Reality....I'm Doing It!!...

Let's face it. While I may feel as though I am still 21, I'm pushing 37!! (not very hard though, I am not trying to get there very fast...)

There are a lot of things I keep putting off because "I might meet the right person one day and everything will fall into place". I guess there comes a time in your long-term singledom, when you have to let go of those foolish hopes, and face reality.

While I'm still a firm believer in love, and of getting everything that you want, the "someone" may come far later in life.

In the meantime...I'm getting kinda sick of waiting on things. I'm somewhat impatient.

Most women my age would see this as a time to start looking for other ways to have kids because we are 'getting old'. Me? Not so much!

I want to take an exotic trip!! I soooo want to see the world, and I keep banking on meeting the right guy to go with me! (mine is not the life with friends of liesure that can pick up and go, or I'd have been gone on said trips, long ago!)

This week.. I had the most amazingly vivid dream of traveling to Antigua. I may be slightly ashamed to say that, before my dream, I had never even heard of this place. Which makes this dream even more amazing!! I remember every detail, smell, color, and experience like I was actually there!! Then google helped me feel the connection.

And so...In 2013...I am booking a trip to the Carribean solo!!  Antigua? Maybe. Punta Cana? Perhaps...All I know is, that my sometime is no longer waiting on a future Mr. Me to come. My sometime is now!

Am I terrified? Yes!!!!!! I don't even dine out alone down the street!! But do I want to wait around on something that I really want to do, in the hopes that maybe I'll meet a guy that will go with me? HELL NO!!!

Life is far too short to wait around.

I am perfeclty OK with spending all my time at the resort, lounging by the pool or, enjoying the crystal blue ocean,  sipping cocktails and reading trashy magazine articles, or the next best thing since "50 Shades of Grey".

I am looking at this as an "Under The Tuscan Sun" experience. I love that movie! And while I don't expect to find love on my solo vacation, I expect to find myself, and be so freaking proud that I did something I never in a billion years thought I could do.

I have not felt more excited, or alive since making this decision!

This seems terrifying to me.. But it's the times we step outside our comfort zone when the most amazing things happen.

And I am so ready to take that step!!


OBM.cle said...

Yayyyyy!!!! How exciting! You are going to LOVE traveling. And trust me, once you scratch that itch you'll never be able to stop! You'll keep traveling & traveling & traveling! This is such a great thing for you :)

Carmen said...

You will have so much fun! I love travelling by myself... I've been way more places on my own than I have with others, and I love being able to do what I want, when I want! I was in the Caribbean in December, and it is beautiful!

Fizzgig said...

I'm so excited to do something I have been putting off for so long!! Getting there will be the terrifying part, but I cannot wait to do it!!!! The researching has been so fun!!

Debbie @ Live from La Quinta said...

I am so excited for you! That sounds like so much fun! I think you'll ask yourself why you waited so long to do this. Yes, it's a little scary, but you'll do just fine.

Jas said...

37? WHAT? I have been under the impression that you were in your twenties this entire time! You just get more and more badass all the time.

Fizzgig said...

debbie: I know, right? getting the first one under your belt is the first step!!! I am so super excited to stop waiting and start DOING!

Jas: thank you, quite flattering!! I get that a lot, i think it is because I don't have children, so I mirror the life of a 20 something....plus I still feel young, so why not!!

Teena in Toronto said...

Good for you! I used to go down south a couple times a year when I was single and loved it!

whitespace said...

You should go for it. Life really is too short. There's an amazing website called airbnb where you can stay in peoples houses (they might be there & you get a room or you get the whole place)I know a few people that have used it & they travel the world on the cheap. You should see if there are places in Antigua.

I'm 40 (nearly 41) and I thought I'd found my dream man a couple of years ago. I live with him but now I'm not so sure about it & am moving out. I think it's better to shun convention & be happier in separate houses than live together compromising your life away.

This goes to shows that you never know what life has in store for you & that love isn't necessarily the answer, your happiness is important & that shouldn't be predicated on finding a man - whatever age you are.

Fizzgig said...

awesome! its good to know im not alone!!

wow!! i totally agree...waiting for a man is a waste of time, and i really need to start looking forward as things are...which really are not bad at all! i am going to embrace life, and take chances!!