"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort










Thursday, May 18, 2006

Jealousy Rears It's Ugly Head...

I've got a myspace. Who doesn't? I got in touch with a lot of people from high school that way. It's amazing who you find there! My CP has had one for months, and he never logs on. Never sends me comments.

For the hell of it, I got on his myspace this week, and there is some chick next to me in his friends list. I thought it was his daughter, but the name was off. I investigate her profile, she's 20. Lives 10 minutes from CP. Wtf??

So, I asked him about her. Calmly at first. Who is she? He didn't know. He said she found him through a myspace search. They chatted at yahoo last Friday night. Not liking that at all, but whatever. She aint got nothin' on me! I eventually logged in as him and sent her msgs to see if I could ignite any incriminating conversation. CP told me that I'm always looking for reasons to get mad at him. Who........ME???? I think if you are engaged to someone that you don't need to be chatting with ladies on the internet like that.

I just blocked her from contacting him, and that's that. It wouldn't be such a big deal if all her postings weren't about fuck buddies, her sex life, quizzes about how much you wanna do her etc.... Needless to say he saw the little person inside I call the jealous me. I don't let her out often, and this is why. She's dangerous! And maybe a little unstable! But, if the shoe were on the other foot hed be ticked off at me!

Looong story. So we were talking at 12:30, long after all this crap went on, and it came up again. I got mad and ended up hanging up on him, and turning the phone off. Cus, I'm a mature 30 year old adult! I'm laying in bed thinking, cus I don't sleep you know...and I just asked for a sign. I needed to know if I was making a big deal out of nothing, if CP was who I should be with. I swear on all that is holey, that right at that moment, my doorbell rang!!!!

It was CP. I was pretty happy because the timing was perfect. We had some sex, and snuggling, and everything is peas and carrots again. Things have been broccoli and cauliflower for a few weeks. Sure, they are OK together, but they just aren't as sweet, and yummy as peas and carrots! Once we got to sleep, I slept.

I SLEPT! I blame it all on CP moving away from me!
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Don't get me started about Lost last night! I have it all figured out but I'll not bore everyone with it! Did any fans catch the hanso foundation/Jeep commercial? I almost missed it w/tivo but I rewound. The website they give out is www.letyourcompassguideyou.com I havn't gotten into any of the files yet. Access denied. There was also a 1800 number given out. I love the show cus it's like bleeding into real life!!!!!!!!! This site translated all the info on the phone call.
There was an ad also run in major newspapers, from a 'fake person' but real in the Lost world, talking about how that book Sawyer was reading 'The Bad Twin' shouldn't be believed.
Have I mentioned lately, that this show fucking rocks????? Kthanks!

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I hope they have a movie or mini-series to wrap up Invasion. I don't know if you watched it yet so I won't say anything, but it would be nice to know how it all comes together. UGH!

Fizzgig said...

Dave: Yea, it's really sad how the world has changed! You wouldn't believe it. It's cool to be a skank hoe these days. When I was a kid (sign, getting older) It wasn't so cool to get around, you didn't want to 'make a name' for yourself. That was not that long ago either. I hate to think what the future holds!

JR: Sha! Canceled, that means we're screwed!!!

Samsara said...

Mon, i'm only a few years older than you and me too. It used to be shameful to be labelled skank ho but today it's like some rite of passge. i go on myspace and am just SHOCKED at what i see - please. i'm no puritan but jesus h. christ.

i had a friend in h.s. who would give bj's to guys she'd just met. i was shocked then, but admittedly, a little impressed i was associated with someone so *Radical* ...however, today it seems radical to associate with people not like that.

Fizzgig said...

Samsara: I know, what is the world coming to! It's all about self esteem I think.

Dave: a skank is a dirty hoe. LOL. A hoe is just another word for a slut, and we all know what a slut is! I'm not sure about what goes on in the minds of men, but if hook ups are what you want, get a myspace profile. Say you are single, and there for dating. Watch what happens. I'm not against sleeping with someone your dating, and I've even done the sex with an ex for a while.
What I am talking about, is blatently spreading it around, and advertising yourself to that point. I just think that if you respect yourself you don't do those things, it's my opinion.