Fear..

I don't like fear. Normally I say, fear only fear! If it's my time to go its my time to go, why be afraid to do something.

Being afraid to lose manfriend, is slowly creeping into my daily thoughts. I'm trying my best to keep them at bay, because the old me in her early 20's...that was crazy...and codependant, let this type of fear control her life.

And it made me a miserable, controlling person.

I have to go thru it, to get past it.

I went out for drinks with my girlfriend last night. Going out on a school night is not so easy as it use to be. Especially when you're having vodka sodas, and three extra shots of vodka.