Greetings from sunny Virginia Beach...

As we floated around the pool yesterday I asked my sister a question my Momma always asked while floating around on the raft..."I wonder what the poor people are doing?"

I've been having a great time, and it's sad that it's almost over. I'm not thinking about that now. I'm finally uploading some pics, and the boy is making breakfast. It smells yummy! We've done a lot already, and I'll have lots to talk about. Last night we went to see the new Batman, which was fantastic! We're going to go see a band on the beach tonight, and that will be fun! It's been so nice waking up every day with the boy and knowing I didn't have to say goodbye. That's the mushy part!

We went to a lecture at the A.R.E (association for research and enlightenment) about soul mates, twin souls, and soul groups. It was really interesting, and a topic I find interesting. It's not the "we're souuuuullll mates" mentality at all, and that is my belief. We are here for a greater purpose, and people we meet happen to help us on the path we've chosen for ourselves. More on this later. Until then, enjoy my awesome cloud picture!

I'm Off Enjoying My Life....

So, I'm off to the beach. I'm sure I'll post some pictures or something equally fun to rub it in that I'm enjoying myself and not working. I had a great meeting with my boss today about what a change I've made in my life since I started to work at the company. It's nice when people notice, because it sure as heck is a lot of work, to change your perception, and attitude for the better.

She also pointed out what I already knew, everything that has been happening since this transformation, has been good. My personal life, promotion, (huge) raise, car, manfriend. The list goes on. Life is really easy, it's all your perception, and how you choose to deal with what it hands you that makes all the difference. I'm a generally positive person. And, that can annoy a lot of people, but you know what? Those people are too busy being miserable.

I then had a meeting with one of my employees and she told me the same thing. That my positive attitude is the glue that holds the department together, and I never have an attitude about anything I am asked to do. I also mastered a huge file with the district manager reviews, and I got it all set up to merge while I am gone. I gave the girls projects to do while I'm out, and here I go, on vacation. No worries.

Me, not post?

I wasn't going to post today, because I actually am hella-busy at work. But, this working out during my lunch hour, is cutting into my internet time. I don't like that. I don't feel complete if I don't get my blogs read. Or my myspace updated. Seriously. I'm sick. I have all these reviews to do for district managers. And I have had to take care of a big wig this week. Plus, hello, I have to do my own reviews for my people. Which is not happening until I am back. From what? Vacation!

It's about 1pm. Forty eight hours from now, I should be rolling into my sisters apartment complex, if all goes well. I'm pretty excited. The boy is pretty excited. Together, we are excited. I may not return. I'm thinking they might have a closet big enough in Virginia Beach to lock him in, and then he's screwed. It was so nice to see him last night. I can't stand him sometimes, only because he's freaking cute and it pisses me off. He is so sweet to me, and he makes me so happy. I still thank the universe for him (among many other things) each night. I sent him an email link yesterday for a website to watch movies and TV shows. And he responded.."that is a good find..and so are you".

Seriously?

A boy has never frustrated me so much, in a good way. I want to eat his heart. But I mean that in a totally loving way, like, he'd be a part of me.

Ok, I realize that sounds completely insane.

Pardon Me...

Pardon me, while I am preparing for my vacation in, um two days. I keep rubbing it in at work. When I've emailed tasks to the girls I've said "While I'm gone (at the beach) next week...." It's loads of fun. I googled directions from the airport to my sisters, and then pointed out to them, theres me, theres the ocean, any questions? I love nothing more than rubbing things in. Why is that?

I still have no power. I mean, I do but not in my bedroom or bathroom. Freaking maintenance guy is a dick bag. He'll be back again today.

This week I've been working out twice a day. On my lunch, for 45 minutes on the treadmill while I watch The View. For two days I did 2.5 miles, and today, I squeezed in 3. After work, I do the usual, 30 min treadmill, 20 min eliptical 15 min bike. I don't remember a time when my body was more exhausted. Have I lost any of the 5lbs I've got to go? No. Do I feel thinner, well sure. I am thinking after vacay, I might just keep the twice a day workouts. Just for one or two days. I have been gaining and losing the same 6lbs for about 4 months now, and I'm pretty sick of it.

P.S. Did I mention, I'm going on vacation this Saturday?

Stimulating?

I'd heard the rumors. Free money from the government. I didn't believe them. Especially since I owe the government more than they already stole from me.

After giving up on any hopes of a stimulus check for myself, it happened. I got one in the mail. Of course, I didn't get the $600 bucks I was entitled to. No, I got a bunch of letters stating how they took the money I owed them out of it for this tax year. Fine. Better than having to pay the bastards, cus seriously? That wasn't happening. Don't get me started on how I worked my life away, 7 days a week, then 14 hours a day, while they taxed the shit out of me and I still owed them. Uh-uh. .I've got two words for "the man"..... Cock... Sucker. Oh no, better....soul..stealer! Stop me while I'm ahead.

The part of me that knows better, is grateful to have received this check. The secret says to not worry about money, and the money will come. I'm pretty good at that. I'm over worrying about it. If I start to worry, I'll work my life away again and that's not worth it! I added it to my savings for vacation/moving. I actually did a super happy dance when I got it. I'm no fool, $300 dolla a loooootta money to me!

Last weekend when we saw fireworks at my house, I told the boy "we sure have seen a lot of fireworks together" it was our third time. He replied "yea, we've seen some in the sky too". I thought it was pretty adorable and he made me all misty! I wanted to kiss off his lips or something but then what would I kiss? I sure love that boy.

Oh, yes, 3 more days until we're on a jet plane to the beach! Yipee! We rented our car this weekend, and we'll pick it up at the airport. I am way excited to be going to the beach. But, I'm more excited to spend time with my guy. And, I suspect he is just as excited. You know we don't like each other at all? Isn't that obvious? Yesterday was 10 months for us. Ten. Almost a year! I can hardly believe it!

This made me laugh until I cried. It's not mine, but whoever owns these cats has some sweet live entertainment! It's a great example of determination. He falls off, and keeps on trucking with his front feet. They love it! Clicky clicky!

Then, I saw this video on You Tube that made me jealous. I want my own furry workout buddy. My cats are lazy freeloaders. Besides killing bugs, they don't do nothin but look cute, expel furballs, and get their hair on everything. The more you watch, the more you see cats enjoying exercise. Seriously, if you have cats you might not want to watch these. It'll make you see your cats as the lazy peices they are. Lucky for them they are adorable.

P.S. When I got home yesterday I had no power on the one side of my apartment. Dude left a note "call me if it still happens". Of course it still happens you didn't do a freaking thing you lazy peice of crap! Nothing was different. He didn't replace the fuses, or anything. My guess is, he came over, my power was on, and he left. Fucking. Idiot. I intend to not pay my rent on the first if it's not fixed.

Sleeplessness...

I think I slept probably 3 hours last night. And this isn't one of those kick-ass times you only sleep 3 hours cus you were up all night "with the manfriend". No, this wasn't like that at all. I got home from the boys house about 10. When I then started to clean, and I didn't stop until 3am. At first it was just because the maintenance guy was coming today and I didn't want my bras on every door handle in my apartment, and my underwares laying around. It was about 100 degrees and I sweated my ta ta's off!

For some time now my power has been working when it feels like it in my 2 bedrooms, hall, and bathroom. Basically the left side of my apartment, upstairs only. So anyway dude's coming while I'm at work to look at it. I don't like the idea of someone in my apt when I'm not home. Dirty.

Meantime, I can't sleep in my bed with no power, because a) it's hot and I need a fan, and 2) I can't sleep without the noise of the fan and c) the dog gets hot too and pants, and rocks the bed. And it's too hot for my kitty cats to sleep with me, and when they don't I just don't feel right. I feel you judging me. I'll be snoozing away and the power goes out and wakes me right up. It's too quiet! I've been sleeping on the couch. Correction. I've been laying on the couch wishing I could sleep. My couch has 2 cushions and right where they meet is where your ass fits. Talking about this is making me tired, so stop it.

Good news!

I am a mere 5 lbs from my 20lb vacation weight loss goal. This leaves me with still more to lose afterwards, thirty to be exact. But the important part is, that I am going to attain my goal. I am doing two a days this week. Two a who?

I'm going to do a 45 min walk during my lunch break (because I don't want to get too sweaty) and then the usual 70-90 minutes ass kicking after work. I worked out on Friday during lunch, I took a late lunch 2-3 and watched Montel. No one else was in gym! I showered, and was back to work all in an hour The shitty part is it takes me about an hour to cool off after working out. I even took a COLD shower. But I sweat so much, I can't turn it off. I dried my hair, but it was wet again. Have I mentioned that it's pretty sweet to have a gym at work?

Friday I also met up with two guys from school and their wives, with Kat at the Aeros game. It was a killer time. We had some laughs. I learned a lot about people we went to school with. ...what ever happened to.... Sometimes it's better you don't know.

4 more days until...

Bathing Beauty...

I successfully found two bathing suits yesterday. My mother told me I should keep both of them. They are tankinis and pretty cute. I only have one thing to say about this experience. Girls who don't have boobs should stop wishing they did. It's not only hard to find regular tops that fit the rack, it's hard to find a freaking bathing suit. And then when you do, there isn't enough support to make them look decent. Seriously, the grass ain't greener. Get yourself a good push up bra and be happy with what your Momma gave you. I still find it hard to believe that in this day and age of ridiculously large breast implants, it isn't easier to find cute bras, tops, and bathing suits for the well endowed. Maybe I'm on to something. My million dollar idea.

I worked out like a maniac again yesterday. I think I'm going to workout at lunch today, since I am going to an Akron Aeros baseball game with some school friends that got a suite (high school....way back when..) and I don't want to miss a work out. I'm on a mission people. And missions make me sweat.

Had some laughs with my Momma last night. She told me that my brother told her he tunes her out when she tells him the same story. She was offended someone would tune her out. Then she went on to tell me all about this game she plays at the game room, and how you have to have 2 fancy fruits and a farmer in a row going sideways or up and down, or a fancy farmer with grapes (I really don't remember cus I tuned her out) and I said "I can't imagine why anyone tunes you out..." I mean, get to the point, right?

Um, let me break it down for you. Five more days of work. Seven more days. Until what? I'M AT THE BEACH! There is a band playing at the beach while we are there, that opened for Edwin McCain when I saw him last September. They are called Butter, and you should check out their myspace. They did covers of like Stone Temple Pilots, Three Doors Down, and they have their own stuff. There's a ton of other stuff going on all week. Different shows, and acts and music and fireworks. There's even a movie under the stars!

I havn't annoyed you for a while with stories of the boy. But I can't wait to see him every day for a week. It's like when you are in high school and you dream of one day living with a boy. But only, I know it can suck sometimes to live with someone cus I've lived with enough someone's to know that. But when that someone is my irresistable someone, I don't see the problem there. Yes..I'm enjoying the ride. I'm entitled to be anxious. I just know I'm going to cry my eyes out when vacation is over, it's gonna hurt to be apart. It'll be 10 months on Monday for us. Already?

P.S. I got paid today. And I got holiday pay. Might I add holiday pay, on top of my 40 hours? This happened before, so I know it's not a mistake. It's like overtime, for not even working the 4th of July. Hollaaaaaaaa!!!! This is awesome because I spent way too much money at Kohl's.

Are You Watching?...

Big Brother 10. My big fat addiction. Who is as excited as me that *Spoiler* Brian got his stank ass kicked to the curb? Who goes into Big Brother week 1 and tries to manipulate everyone, and brag about it. God, I hate people like that. When the girls decided to back door him. Jerry is old, but that doesn't change the fact that his constant military talk is getting on my last nerve. I mean, good for you, I understand the pride or whatever, and I'm grateful for people like him, cus I wouldn't wanna do it. But, every other word out of his mouth is about the marines and honor and pffft. You're on Big Brother. You besta forget about I love to yell and scream at the TV, and cheer. Big Brother...I love you!

Does anyone else think that Keesha looks like Faith Hill? Not a spitting image, but there is a definate resemblance there.

Baby Borrowers. Reason 234,876,098 not to have children. This is a brilliant show for all those stupid high school betches that think "I WANNA BAAAAYYYBEEEEE". Yea, I was there too sister, you grow out of it real fast once you realize what it's really all about. They might be cute and a novel idea, but they um, scream and cry. And you can't just get up and go when you want. Sex? Shopping? Not without that baby.

Flipping Out. I love this show. Jeff Lewis is such an entertaining person. I only bring this up because I'm sad Jenny is getting divorced. I know what it's like to be married to a guy that wont grow up and defend him and stand by him, only for him to leave your ass high and dry. She's better off. But it's sad. She's so cute.

I watch 8,000 more shows, but you have to have your limits. I could seriously blog for a lifetime just about TV. I'm sick, and I know this.

I tried on my old bathing suit last night. the butt is a bit baggy. I can't wear it anyhoo, cus the boob is ripped. The point here people is, while I havnt dropped any weight for a week, I'm still losing something! I still want to lose 10 lbs to meet the 20 by vacation goal I had. Sigh.

Last night I did 30 min on the treadmill, at a 5.0 cus I'm jogging on the balls of my feet and it doesn't hurt my knees! Then I did 20 on the eliptical, 20 on the bike and another 15 on the treadmill. Then I went to Mom's and painted the doors on her shed.

She didn't have the stuff I need to finish a task. I might have to hoof it on vacation cus this is not going so well with completing a project before going. When do we have to rent a car? Oh, this weekend. Good luck with that. So, I did what I could do with what I had. I still have a ton more to do. Maybe she'll stay home one day and get what I need, and be home so a sista can pee or get a drink when it's 90 degrees outside.

Have I mentioned how happy I am that our town festival is over? I despise closed roads. And people parking on both sides of the street, and walking down the middle, and generally invading my space. Being in BFE has both its ups and its downs. And having minimal traffic/people is definately an UP!

It's a bird...it's a plane...It's, a moth?...

Question. What has buzzing wings, and flies around fast from place to place? Not a good description? I'm enjoying the outdoors last night, when I see this thing darting around in my bee balm. At first I thought im thinking it was a hummingbird, because they are suppose to be attracted to it. Not to mention I have a feeder for those bastards who never come around! I rushed in to get my camera and took some shots of it. The more I saw of it, the more it didn't look like any kind of bird. It was more like a giant butterfly than a hummingbird, and I looked it up today and found out it's a hawk moth.

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Here is a video I shot if you want to see why I thought it was a hummingbird. I'm not the best videographer. Has anyone else ever seen these? I mean, I live by the woods so I had no idea what it could've been I get all sorts of creepy crawlies around. And cute little tree frogs too!