"Choosing trust over doubt gets me burned once in a while, but I'd rather be singed than hardened." -Victoria Monfort

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Get a Friggin' Job, Assholes!

I don't live in the best neighborhood. But, that is why I am able to afford such a large, beautiful, affordable duplex, that accepts my 5 pets at no extra cost, a mere 6 miles from work!

Latley, the crime around here, is ridiculous! Shootings, muggings, local restaurants, and fast food chains being held up for stupid amounts of money (often less than $100) And even a bank was held up in the past two months.

This all hit too close to home when acquantences that live about 6 blocks away had their house burglarized between 9 and 11 am this week. Some assholes kicked down their back door, and took their gaming systems, TV, jewelry. Turns out, their entire block was victem to these "pillow case" bandits.

Yes, times are hard. Jobs may be scarce, but that does not entitle any one person to steal from their fellow man! You struggle, and work hard like most honest people on this earth seem to do!

I don't have a lot, but what I do have, took me my entire adult life to acquire. I had to work two jobs for over 4 years to get out of a debt hole, and regain financial stability. I didn't enjoy it. But it never crossed my mind to rob an innocent, hard-working person, or a business to get myself out of debt.

I think it's disgusting that some thugs feel they are entitled to what you have, just because they are too lazy to work hard for it. Or, because they chose to dabble in drugs, and now have an addiction that they cannot support.

After being a renter for many years, I finally broke down and got insurance. I can no longer live inside my fantasy world where everyone respects each other, and minds their own business.  I'm now living under the assumption that "people are assholes".

Sunday, November 25, 2012

It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas....

I got my decorations out this weekend, and spent hours upon hours decorating trees. The  music of choice, was the Muppets Christmas CD...my all-time-fave!!

Of course, once the trees were assembled, I found out that half my lights didn't work. Isn't that always the way?

My dining room tree is silver and black. It's far more sparkly than the pictures show..
Close up

My main tree in the foyer. It has all the stuff I've made and collected over the years.

My bathroom tree is just a little Charlie Brown tree, for ambiance..

The second I finished the dining room tree, the cats assumed their position.

The tree in my bedroom..

Fizzgig taught Mr. Magoo, kitty 101....lay under the tree..
Mr. Magoo thinks that kitties make the best pillows...

Friday, November 23, 2012

Bright Horizons...

I came across a friends FB status about wondering if there is one person in the world meant for just you, that will accept everything about you and love you regardless. I commented that of course there is. Otherwise, you will just stop looking, and settle for less than you deserve.

The longer I am single, the easier the wait has become. I have abandoned the "I'm lonley and miss being in a relationship" thoughts for the "I'd rather be single forever than settle for someone I think is just OK".

And at this point in my life, I see a lot of people who are just "settling". They are not really  happy with their partners, they are going through the motions. Afraid to be alone.  I don't want that for myself. I spent the better part of my life settling for less than I deserve, and the lesson is that I know now, that I am better than that! Alone is a magical place, that you live in until you feel like letting it go for someone else.

To some, I am a hopeless romantic. So what if I want it all? I deserve it! And I know that eventually, the wait is going to pay off.

I want to think about him all the time, while still tending to our own lives. Smile, and giggle when he crosses my mind. I want to be excited to see him. I want to love to kiss him. I want to think that snuggling with him is as close to heaven as I can be on this earth. I want to feel safe when I am with him.

The common theme is, I want a feeling. It's not anything that can be put into words.

Until then, I am pretty content with being single. I'd rather sit at home on a Friday night and watch movies and drink wine with the cats and the dog, than go out with someone "just to go out". Or, be dating people just for the sake of dating.

I feel like that is for people who don't know what they want.

Whatever life has in store for me, the good news is, that I am happy just where I am at this moment.

Monday, November 19, 2012

Way Up North...

Imagine the horror...traveling 6 1/2 hours, and the last few miles are all dirt roads. I was cut off from the world! No cell phone! No internet! No facebook!!!

Dirt road...cell phones? No can do!
I made a zen rock stack at Lake Michigan...I love this pic!
I had a great mini vacation with my girlfriend! We stayed with her Momma deep in the north woods. Where the only roads for miles are dirt ones...and they have more snowmobile roads than car roads. It was peaceful, and fun, and fabulous! She fed us so much that I think it'll take 2 weeks to work off all the food!
We had a ton of laughs, and I'm lucky to have a friend I enjoy the company of for so long! Great road trip!
Our flip flops are in the tree...
We visited the shoe tree...it was a great attraction. We threw our flip flops up there, and wrote our names and the date....

I had to have this sign to hang on my wall, because when I read it...it made me cry. To me, it's just what a girl wants! My girlfriends mom said "honey, no one is ever going to read all that". But I know what it says, and I love it!

We played games, learned great recipes, sat by the fire, watched the birds and squirrels on the deck, shopped, watched the walking dead (yes! her Mom loves it too!!) and a scarey movie, laughed so much, and most of all, had a great time!


Thursday, November 15, 2012

Road Trip!

I am still...5 days later, riding my Madonna high. (see below...) I still can't sleep, I'm so wound up over the event... I wonder how long it will last?  I can't stop pouring over pictures, watching videos on youtube, and squealing with delight...

But! Bright and early, I'm off on a road trip with my BFF for the weekend! We are going to visit her Mom in Michigan. I have never been to Michigan...unless you count the two times I stopped for gas in Detroit on my way to Canada for work.

I have vowed not to judge Michigan by those harrowing stops. I don't think Detroit counts, it just isn't fair to judge a book by it's sweaty armpit of a city.

And, I havn't been on a "friend only" vacation since I was 19!

I dunno how Moms of human kids ever leave them. Because my only apprehensions about a weekend away with my bestie, is leaving poor Mr. Magoo at his gramma's house. She and my brother will take good care of him, but you know, he is a puppy mill rescue, and has only bonded to me.

The cats will stay home, and I have a friend checking in over the weekend. Much as I love the cats, they have each other, and they'll be fine.

"Do these cats make my butt look big?"

I do however, look forward to the hours of girl talk on the drive up and down. The box of wine I packed, along with a compilation of awesome music I spent hours putting together!

And...the possibility that the trip could turn slightly "Thelma and Louise". Not that we'd kill anyone or run from the police. Mostly, the running into Brad Pitt and taking him to a hotel part.

Watch out, Michigan!!!

Monday, November 12, 2012

I Came I Saw I Conquered!!! MDNA tour Cleveland, 2012!!

Q: How is seeing Madonna for the first time ever for a 36 year old fan who has loved her from the beginning of time?

A: Legen (wait for it) DARY!!!

Ummm...two days later. I am still on my Madonna high. I havn't slept more than 3 consecutive hours since Thursday, I keep waking up in a panic, first, because of anticipation...now...because I fear I may forget everything when I slumber!! My memories are so vivid, I keep going over and over it in my mind!

When I sat in my seat...I had to keep covering my mouth to squeal with delight. "I'm really here!! This is really happening!!!"

It was worth every single penny I spent! My ONLY complaint, was all the dickbags who spent all that money to see her, and expected her to sing only old songs. Hello? She has been relavent in the industry for the past 20+ years!! She has over 14 albums!

It was the MDNA tour..named after her NEW album, jackhole! Not "Madonna sings her greatest hits". She had a great dose of some oldies, but I happen to love her new album, and I sang, and danced my ever loving ass off until my voice was gone, my feet STILL ache...and my hair was sweat soaked! Best night ever????? MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!


That there is my little gem of a video from the MDNA tour. Like a Prayer! Most of my videos suck because I was dancing and/or singing too loud to share them!

Here are a few good pics I got from my pretty sweet vantage point!!!!


I never for a second sat down, during the interludes, the ballads, I don't care!! I paid good money for this show, and I screamed, and sang, and I'm pretty sure since I was the only cool person in my row, Madonna saw me!
After the YEARS of TV appearances, magazines, videos, albums, articles, Tshirts, DVD's....I actually got to see her and enjoy her performance LIVE!!! I was in my own little world.
And I am certain, this is something I will never forget! The wait, was worth it!
This has been a life long dream!
And yes...dreams really DO come true!

Friday, November 09, 2012

Dreams Really Do Come True...

So, tomorrow, I am going to see Madonna!!! Live and in person. Bucket list item Numero, uno!!!

She hasn't been to these parts in well over 20 years, and at that time, there was no way my Mother was going to buy me a ticket, let alone take me!

I have so many memories thru the years with Madonna!! I was terrified buying my ticket to see "Who's That Girl" because it was rated PG, and I was only 12 at the time. I thought for sure, they would not let me in! But they did!

Before TiVo, I had to watch TV all night to catch her much anticipated Pepsi commercial, that was met with great controversy, featuring "Like a Prayer".  Burning crosses? Kissing a black man? GASP!!!

I was 14 years old, and I didn't see what the big deal was.

Almost immediately after this premiere, I tried to use clorox bleach on my bangs to have the same hilights look as she did in this commercial. Thankfully...Clorox doesn't work...

And who can forget waiting to see the premiere of Justify My Love in the middle of the night.

Madonna's first album was the first cassette tape I ever bought...Ray of Light was the first CD I ever bought. I dressed in my older sisters pink prom dress and lace gloves and lip synced "Material Girl" in the mirror just about every Saturday morning!

I dressed as Madonna for Halloween when I was 7 years old. (Mom's idea of a costume was not remotely Madonna-like, but she did let me wear a lace bow, a beauty mark, and black rubber o-ring bracelets)

Evita was the first movie I ever lied about to get a friend to see with me. She had no idea it was a musical, and I kept telling her it wasn't, even after the first few songs.

I have not only waited a year since buying tickets...I've waited a lifetime to be in the same room with my Idol.

I've driven those close to me absolutely nuts with my excitement, and impatience over the last year, counting down the days. Several times a day. Every day. And now? It's just HOURS!

I've got my outfit picked out. Jewelry ready to go. Hair appointment, and dinner reservations. All that is left is to spend an evening with the girls, dance my ass off, and sing at the top of my lungs! (I have a solo ticket, but found friends to drive up with that didn't want to pay $200 for a ticket...so they will be far above me, enjoying the same show, without the same view!)

Love or hate her, I don't care!!

I am going to be riding this high for a very, very long time!

Tuesday, November 06, 2012

On Great Things...

I got my new furniture today. Soooo worth the wait!!

Here it is by day...
 And it looks like this at night!
I am kinda in love with it. My chair is super comfy, and will soon be getting a matching twin because it is just that fabulous! My entertainment center is my first brand new piece that is not particle board! I have a few things that I've purchased second hand at the Salvation Army store, but they don't count.
And how about my beautiful television?  I am so in awe of it, that I stay up far too late watching TV! I don't even care what I'm watching!
If I'd have known my 30's would be so fruitful, I'd have not wasted so many years dreading their arrival! The me that worked two jobs for years just to make ends meet, never imagined I'd be where I am today!
The best thing about this week?
Besides new furniture?
In just 4 short days, we will share the same air space! I will be living the dream for an entire night!
Then, I'll go home to my fabulous apartment, and fall asleep in my (practically) new bed, with my very new bedding.
Very similar to my old set, minus all the rips that occured from machine washing a dry clean only bedspread...
Yes...great things come to those who wait, and work hard for what they want. Now....we are just awaiting that prince charming fellow..

Friday, November 02, 2012

Old is Just a Number...

The other day, I was invited to join a facebook group.

Was it for fabulous singles? Uh, no...more like my 20 year high school reunion planning.

I still have one year and 6 months until it has been 20 years. I would've appreciated the extra time to let it sink in.

It always amazes me when I see my friends or classmates having been married 10, or 15 years, some of them with scores of children. Some of those children...are...um, able to like, operate motor vehicles, or have graduated high school, and in some cases...have had children.

People my age should NOT be grandparents!

My Mom always likes to say that when she looks in the mirror she wonders who that old lady is staring back at her. Until recently I didn't "get it".

Sigh...Yes...I'm getting laugh lines. I can see the crows feet trying to sneak their way in! And..when I get up in the morning, there are creases in my face that don't go away before I leave for work. (I need to try this satan pillowcase thing that I read about online....)

I am getting to the point where I really "get" that age is really just a number! I still feel 21!! It is so hard to accept the physical aging process, when your mind still thinks it is so young.

I will attend this 20 year reunion (in over a year) feeling on top of the world! I can't say that I feel in any way that I am missing out on anything because I don't have a "family".

Everyone has their own course to follow in life, and I am embracing each step along the course that is my life!

20 years? Pshhh. I got this!